Friends Forever

2011-02-04T09:06:00.001-08:00

dissapointment? way more than that.
its been way too many times.

this time, its just my fault.
but seriously, YOU ASKED.
i answered thats all, and then all i get is SHOUTED AT -.-
what the hell!
alhdlashdsladhqpihekadnladldsaldgqldbasdbasodgasdsl
excitement just leads to disappointment.
expectations just leads to disappointment..

hasldhasld
for once, i need this
i know i wont regret it.

2010-12-07T04:39:00.000-08:00

2010-11-07T05:20:00.000-08:00

OMGG!!
havent blogged in a while..!!
hahaha. the only reason why i wanted to blog is because of...
:):)
:):):)
*wait for it!!*...
MY BEST FRANN :) chean shuo!!:)
OMFG. i miss you sooo much!! :(
you have no clueeee!!
and you bitch!! you have your holidays right noww ;( unfair much? jk ;)
i loveyouuuuuuu bitch and i miss you sooo much ;(
IM TRYINGG REALLYYY HARD TO GO TO SINGA IN DEC!! :)
so you better pray for me and hope my mommy lets me! :)
hahhahah so i could have fun with you like the old days :D
and we'll do our doodling plan we planned... like a long time ago :P
hehehe. i feel like i havent talked to you in a bit! well yes i have not and you have SO Much to update me on and i have SO much to tell you too!!
bitch i hate how your like 3 hours away from me :(:( technically more than 3 but yeah you get it
hdaslhdsaldsladhlsahdhasdlahflashdlsad
flyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
tooooooooooooo
hhongggggggggggggggggg
konggggggggggggg
because joelle misses you!!
COME HEREE BITCH :(:(
oh and... you posted a post on...

Monday, July 5, 2010

yes im sucha fail -.- i jsut read it.
yes thats how stupidd i am but...!!
hahaha bitch i miss youuuuu
come to freaking hongkong!
yyou like winter dont cha? :)
its cold in hongkong right now!
so comeee hereee!! you can stay at my house bitch :D my grandma freaking loves you :D
heehhehe!! and we could like... SHOPPPPp!!! EVERYDAY!! :)
shopping with maaa bestffrannn :D
hehehee ;)
wellll i miss you bitch so just... come :D

LOVEYOUSSXXX

2010-09-07T04:29:00.000-07:00

i miss year 8 so much

remember the little book i bought with you and its now my diary?
you bought the bigger book for you diary..
i was reading it (sorta) when i saw something.
theres pictures in that book
and that pictures was of bestfriends sharing an umbrella
and next to it i wrote
hey thats just like me and .....!

heh. is it still like that?
looking back..
i miss year 8 so much.
no other year can replace it.
no one can ever say it wasnt the best.
year 8, i miss you would you come back please?

its amazing how so much can change in soo little time yeah?
maybe its my fault
and maybe our friendship was NEVER that strong.
i just thought it was.
you know..
how hurt i was?
when you didnt tell me about the whole thing between u and him?
and you didnt even MENTION ANYTHING about it to me.
and i had to find out from 2 other people..
yeah, i know i said sorry and i tried to forget about it
BUT ITS REALLY HARD.
it just keeps haunting and haunting me.

sometimes im soooo excited just cause im gonna hang with you!
and then when all of us "hang"
we just split into 2 groups.
i reallyy want to talk to you
and then she pulls u away...

sorry.. its just
you have no clue how hard it is for me. you have no clue how much i miss you and how much i still wnat you as my best friend.
i talked to you about
and you said nothing can replace me
but she feels like the nothing.

year 8, year 8
i miss you so much.

2010-07-31T09:55:00.000-07:00

you have no clue how much we all miss you already.

i know you couldn't help yourself...
but its his birthday.

i regret so much.
i kept telling myself that after i came bak from UK
the first thing i would do is go and visit you
but i kept hanging out,
kept delaying it...
until today
which i barely saw you for...
maybe for just like 10 minutes i was with you?
and then you left all of us.

i just wish i could have been a better grand daughter,
i wish i visited you more, spent more time with you.

i know you waited for her to visit you,
the doctor said you left late,
everyone told me that you waited for her...
and i should have thought about bringiing my laptop
and u could have webcammed with her...
she was the one you loved the most outta all your grand children..
i really wish you and her could have seen her for the last time

i remember as a child, you always bought me hershey's cookies and cream chocolate..
and slowly... my favorite flavor became cookies and cream.
i remember that me and my sister always fought for the bars of cookies and cream chocolate you bought us...

then when i grew up.. we grew apart..
i didnt understand why you left us, i felt mad
and i was really angry at you doing all the stuff to our family
but now.. i think.. you had your reasons.. i dont know what reasons
but im sure you did cause you wouldnt have done that to us.
at first when you came back,
i was like WTF.
but then i found out you were sick.
in the beginning, i refused to visit you
but my mom told me you were getting worst and worst everyday...
and i got scared you'll leave us...
so i visited you whenever my mom asked me to

watching you get skinnier and weaker day by day was really painful...
and when summer came,
i made sure i visited you everyday, well not everyday but at least once in 2 days cause by that time, your condition was unstable and the doctors said you were gonna leave soon.
but then i went to uk.
and when my mom texted me telling me you were really ill,
i was really scared, the only time someone in my family passed away, i was too little to understand. but this time i understood...
i told myself i had to visit you..
but i only did today...
i had 4 whole days to visit you and spend more time with you..
but i didnt go.. until today
and when i saw you today..
i wanted to cry.. but i held my tears
it only had been 3 weeks,
and you became so skinny,
so weak.
sooo much skinnier and sooooo much weaker..
when i called you the first time..
i dont think you heard me
i had to go right next to your ear and called you really loudly, then you heard
i dont think you recognized me in the beginning, but i guess you remembered after...
i was gonna cry...
but i was sick too
so i had to go home..

but at night, we recieved a call from my mom in the hospital.
everyone at home rushed there. and by the time i saw you,
it was too late..
everyone wass crying.
i tried to held my tears, but i just couldnt...
i couldnt take the fact that you were gone..
and even though you didnt really watch me grow up..
and we werent that close..
but i cried..

where ever you are,
i'll always talk to you
and i know your gonna always be somewhere here...
listening to our whole family
and your gonna protect us too right?

we miss you, we all do..
x

2010-06-27T08:31:00.000-07:00

SUMMER <3.
SUMMER <3.
SUMMER <3.
SUMMER <3.

i still cant believe that summer is FINALLY HERE!
well 1 week of summer has past!
summer is like the best!
no hw, no school, no teachers
im all freeeeeee!! :D
like a little bird.
okayy im talking crap

summer is like...
the best time of the year :)

btwss im in love with the song california gurls :)
its awesomee!! :)

so what have i been doing this week?
hm... nothing speciall :)
besides chilling, hanging and catching up on sleep :)
ohh my sleeping pattern is kinda messed up too -.-
ehehhe

<3.x

2010-06-24T06:10:00.000-07:00

life sucks.
life sucks.
life sucks.

life is so god damn unfair.

heh.
family is just gonna be another one of those words
im NEVER gonna be able to understand.

2010-06-17T05:12:00.000-07:00

OMGOMGOMG!!!
GUESSS WHATTT??????!!!
TOMORROW IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!! :)
OMGOMG!! :)
hahaha SUMMERR <3333.
summer, I LOVE YOU! :)

summer love <3
but im gonna miss year 8 so much,
year 8 was the best year so far.
I LOVED IT.
yes, we had our days where the sun seemed like it never shined,
when colors didnt seem to exist, but in the end, its a lesson we all learnt.
i may got hurt, may spend nights and nights wondering and crying
but its a lesson learnt

year 8,
what can i say?
many many many things happened.
i drifted apart from some people,
i tried my best to keep close to others but didnt work,
but i made new friends, became closer to others, trusted more people.
many things has changed,
year 8 seemed so much shorter than year 7,
or maybe we're all just much stronger?
im glad year 8 happened.
and one more thing...
I ABSOLUTELY LOVE MY STUDY GROUP!! :) 8A!!! :D
8A IS THE BEST, THE BEST!!! :)
and of course, blue house <3

through this year,
i've cried, i've felt like dying, i've felt like life is a bitch.
but i made it through.
somehow, i always think that the only reason i make it through
is my best friends :)
i love them, they always know what to do when im sad,
they know how to cheer me up,
they know how to make my days brighter.
you know who you guys are :)
3 words, i love you :)
and thanks for being there for me,
giving me a helping hand whenever i need one :)
thanks for catching me when i fall,
thanks for everything <3

2010-06-09T04:16:00.000-07:00

so many things have happened this year
so many changes have took place this year.
i wonder how would it be like after the summer?
would all of us drift further and further apart?
or would we be like glue and stick together like before?

2010-06-07T05:35:00.000-07:00

i always wonder...
whats gonna happen to us next?
are we gonna keep on drifting and drifting apart?
or are we gonna go back to what we were before?
i always wonder
and somehow even if you do something that pisses me off,
all my anger turns into sadness. i dont know how it works but it just does
when everything first started, i cried a lot and a lot.
thinking.. i cant lose another best friend.
but i did.. and we're here now
drifting and drifting....
till we go nowhere.

theres always 2 types of friends in the world,
fake and real.
but we can never tell whos fake and whos real until we mess up.
doesnt that suck?
we always say friends forever, but do we mean it?
forever is a really long time.
can people actually stay friends with others forever?
i know some of you guys i can always count on and trust
but some of you give me mixed feelings,
like i can count on you sometimes,
but other times can i?
life is way to complicated,
life should just be simple, happy and relax.
but thats just how everything works,
the more you want something, the more you wont ever get it.

things always dont work out for us dontcha think?
we just love to bring the worst outta each other dont we?
maybee relationships are just over rated..
trust is a big thing in relationships,
something we dont have.
something that always pulls us down.
i give you the chance, i trusted you but yet you just completely ruined it again.
i wonder... can my feelings be chopped up into pieces?
that way at least i know im happy with half of my life.
half of my life is alot alr isnt it?
so why dont i feel like im happy at alL?
trust is just something too much for us.
it takes years to build up, seconds to destroy and forever to repair.
maybe i'll get over it but maybe i wont.

2010-06-05T07:36:00.000-07:00

hey guys!
this post is for my gorgeouss betchhh CHEANSHUO! :)
your post is by farr the sweetestt post ever!! :)
i love you!!!
haha yes!!! we need to hang and catch up when i get backK!!
and yes we can doodle!! BUTT SHOPPING IS A MUSTT!!!
HAHAHAHAHAH XD
yes singapore loves joelle
but you know what?
joelle loves chean shuo more! hahahahha
dudeeeeyyy!
i miss you soo much too!! :)
i was really happy when we catched up on everything today!:)
and of course i remember all the good times we spent together
when we were "young" hehe.
well we were really innocent :D
remember our manga craze?
AND OMG!! MATH CLASS WAS LIKE... OUR DOODLE CLASS!! :)
we would just sit there and doodlee!! :D
and we hated ourr math&science teacher!! :D
hehehe. all the good times,
they'll alwaysss be in my heart
cause guess what YOUR MINE :)
bahhaha. i love our matching necklaces!! :)
i will definately wear it!!!
hahaa!! :)
I WILL GET SO HYPEDD UP WHEN I SEE YOU!! :)
i might embarass you!! hehehhe.
ANDDD FINALLY!
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN EVERYONE IN THE WORLD DOES :)
best friends till the end of time :)
guess what chean shuo?
no matter how far apart we are, you'll always be my bestie:)
cause i tell you everything, i trust you with all my secrets in life
and i know you'll never ever do anything to hurt me :)
and and!! i loveedd 5.4!!!
onee of the reasons i loved it WAS YOU!
awwww... i really miss you!
like alot! you might not notice, but i miss you likee loads!!
5.4 FTW!:)
chean shuo + jo FTWWW!! :)
andd btw i love mangoes too!! :)
their my FAVORITE FRUIT!!
and chocolate is like my favorite comfort food ;)
andd... honestly, sometimes i feel like im fading awwayy from your world
andd going into my own little bubble.
but i know thats never gonna happen again :)
cause we've catched up!!
and i knoww, there will be times that we wont be close and hard times for both of us,
but by the end of the day...
we'll still be like before,
we'll still be the ppl that love to hangout, shop TOGETHER :)
hehehe
<3
PS. joelle loves chean shuo cause she thinks that shes one of the best friends i can ever find, and one of the prettiest betch that will always stand by me i can ever meet :)
imissyouusomuch:(

2010-05-29T06:05:00.000-07:00

BAHAHAHAHHAA
HI! :)
youU!! yes you!! :P
i love you!! :)
haha no i dont
or do i? :OOOOO
hehe.

okay that is how bored i am x)
and chean shuo knows x)
hehehe. im talking to her on msn
but shes a boob so shes not replyinggg! :(

OH WAIT!!
she replied! :) yay! :)
hehehe.
lifeeeeee:O
I LOVEEEEEWHEREEIAMMm!! :)
ANDD UK TRIP SOONn!!
omgg gonna bee soooooooo muchhh fun!!
jas+justinaa+alwin+max AND OF COURSEE MEE!! :)
omgg shoppinggg :D
me and justinaa have done our researching :D
we know what brands uk have :D
THEY HAVE RIVER ISLAND!:)
TOPSHOP! :) hehe.
we're gonna shopppp likee we diee!! :)

ohh!! friday was ALLISSA'S birthday!! :)
happy birthday(again)
I LOVE YOUu!! :)
hehe.
so basically
after school, likee.... gah we hanged
watched a movie
then bought liss gifts!! :D
hehe. then.. eat i think :DD
and then JASSYY CAMEE!! :)
and we had girl timee
without harry!! :DDD yehhh :D
hehe shopped... ish not really
didnt buy anythinggg
was broke cause of liss's present. Seee how much i love you?
hehe. then.... ohh!! we sat on the stairs in wtc and talked :)
bestiee talk! (jo,jas,cheri,liss!)
hehe. then cheri's house! haha eat, videos, try on cheri's clothes :D
yeah we're just that cool. thenn i had to leave :(
hahah but still
HADDD A BLASSSTTTT!! :)
i laff you 3 gorgeousss girls!

LOVESSSXXXX

2010-05-22T22:11:00.000-07:00

hey!
since tianjin trip is over...
school is ending!
and summer is coming!
mixedd feelings!
damn im gonna miss year 8 so much!
but thennn again! i loveee the summer! :)
no work, no stress! just lotsa fun and relaxinggg! :)
heheh.

yearr 8 i loveeeyouu!!:)
hehe best year so far.. :D

2010-05-04T06:50:00.000-07:00

GAHHHH
why are you sooo
adhlasdlshdlashdlsahdash fsgfos fg'safy'ewsfs
fsofgd gsogfs'fdwegr 23'cgrsdflsafgls
BITCH

okayyy!:)
this parts gonna be happy!:)
I LOVE CHUCKK
:) bestt tv show ever! :)
hehhe.
i lovee devon.!
and the ending of today's episode isnt good :(
devons in danger :(((
nonono!!
if devon dies
ima stop watching chuck
muahahahah! :)
i love devonnnn!
+chace+channing+ian+ashton
:Dhehehe

imweird
yesh i know
but im cool like that
byebyeebxxx

2010-04-18T04:42:00.001-07:00

heyy!! :)
i just felt like blogging! :P
havent been blogging lately yeahh :P sorry :)
lifes been okay lately :)
not the bestt but not the worst either :D
lalallalalaa

do you remember?
in mg we had this game thingy...
where we had to be each other's "angel"
and we would like write cards anonymously and like even give gifts to that person?
and like after 5 weeks? i cant really remember how long it was but yeah somewhere there your "angel" would like write a letter saying who she was.
well i remember you were my angel and that was how we kinda got close.
hahhaa i remember that game was so fun. i never knew you were my angel! until like the last day when i read the letter, i never thought you would be my angel.
but im glad we had that little game because if we never had that game, i wouldnt become bffs with you. sometimes i still wonder how things would be like if i never moved, if i was still in the same class, same school and mostly same country as you. maybe then we would be even closer? maybe even like sisters. haha. i really miss those days, you knew everything about me and i knew all your little secrets, i never hid anything from you.
but then stuff happened, andd everything changed.
now, even though we kinda do talk a little. maybe we do exchange secrets but its so different. no more after school hangouts, no more shopping together. and omg i remember you were like the best person to shop with. everyone tried to stop us from going into shops and we would go like okay im not gonna shop anymore, slap me if i do okay? and then in the end we would still buy stuff and we would go like this isnt counted only the next time i do then slap me. and keep going on like this. now everythings so different.. is it true? that you cant be best friends with someone once you guys dont live at the same place?
i remember we never had a single fight! and every recess we would go together and laugh soooo much it gave us stomach aches.
its not that i dont like life now, but theres always a regret. you were my best friend, i still treat you as one.

2010-04-13T05:11:00.000-07:00

heyyy guys!
easter is over :(
sadly! :(
i had SOOSOSOOOO MUCH FUN IN SINGAPORE! :)
hehehe. shoppingggg watching movies being retards :D
hahaha. now i miss it!
basically....

saturday: i went out with brey and bird! :D hehehe we ate this weird pizza thingy then we went to takee stickypics! :) hehehe. we camwhored alot! :P and thennn... we ate again! xP cookies and burger kind :D hahhaha. had so much fun with you guys! :) and i realized everytime i go back i hangout with you guys first! :D hehe. i love you guys! see you guys soonN! :)xx

sunday: sunday! OMG i loved that freaking day! :D hehe hanged with my favorite cousins :D audrey and adele! and joycee -.- LOL. well we met at ion, we basically traveled here and there. hehe. we shopped alot! and ate too! :) hehe and we were super retarded -.- laughed soooo much :P and audrey justin bieber is NOT cute. :D hehe. and our families had like dinner together! :P hehe at this pizza place! it was so good :) ilyx see ya soon! :D

monday: hanged with gillian first! omg we talked for a super long time! :P hahaha well then.. shopped a little :D then charlotte came and hoe came. still shopped XD heheh shop shop shop! :D then... gillian left :( and thenn we watched a movie! :D we watched how to train a dragon, hahaha didnt expect it to be good but it actually was! :D but then the stupid little boy behind me was like... really annoying :P cant wait till i see you guys again! xx

tuesday: universalll studios with family. wasnt that gooddd the main ride was closed :(( yeah sucks. but i still had fun! didnt do much on tuesday though :P

wednesday: CHARLOTTE<3 :D hehe. we hanged at like 11? yeah and then went around orchard and somerset. shopped kinda :P and then we watched remember me. and OMG IT SUCKS! remember me was so effing boring! charlotte and i decided to ditch it and go to kap to find elizabeth :P then we sat down at mcdonalds and atee food :) hehe. we chatted too! then i went to elizabeth's house:) hehe chat chat chat! OMGOMGOMGG :D PRANK CALLING HAHAHAHHAHHAHAH prank called and texted ppl :P so freaking funnY! i pretended to be their stalker xD and like elizabeth knew them so i was like oh your from this class andd this school and stuff like that! and even where they lived XD soo funnY! one guy believed -.- then he called me -.- and i was like i was just pranking you. hahah! then i left.. :P heehe and shopped withh joycee au. we bought stuff!! :D eheehe. ilyg! had so much funN!!! xx

thursday: heheh thursday hanged with cheanshuoo! elizabeth, brey, dorcas(a little she left so early!), isabel! hehe. had so much fun! we hanged at kap! so funny xDDDD heehehe. anddd im sooo happy i catched up a little with you chean!:) hehe havent talked to you for a long long time before i went to singa! :( yeahhh. i miss youuu angelll innocent person that laughs alot and makes me laugh for no reasons. andd your laugh is freaking contagious! :P i love youuu!! :) see you next time and you owe me stuff ><

fridayy: last dayy of singapore :(((( was really sad... i didnt hang with anyonee! :( besides joyce. we didnt have much time anyways :( basically shopped around ion and 313. blehsahlsdhlashdlasd then went to the airport :( left and then reached hk.

woahhh easter is over SO FAST! :(((
i miss easter! :((
i misss you guys in singaporee :((
see ya soon alright?
keeppp in touchh
lovesxx

2010-04-01T04:19:00.000-07:00

heyyyY!!!
todays postt hass a happy part!
and a sad part! well not really sad but yeah :)
hehehe
WELL GUESS WHAT GUYS!
ITS EASTER!! :) FINALLY!!!:)
singapore in 2 days! :)
cant wait!! :)
and btw, cheri and andreww and alwinn! I HAD SO MUCH FUN WITH YOU GUYS TODAY! :)
hehehe.

well, what going on?
i feel like im losing all of you.
i've lost her alr, i really dont wanna lose you!
you know you are the bestie that i treasure alot,
why do we keep fighting ever since i left?
please please please... i dont wanna fightt..
at least not 2 days before i leave.
what if we're not okay when i go back?
just like last time... it was so awkward.. i was just staring at you and you stared back.
thinking... should i talk to you? or should i just ignore you..
you want to know the truth?
the only reason i go back to visit... is cause of you and cheanshuo, maybe other good friends give a little more reasons, but you two are my main reason.
remember the times? we had so much fun, going crazy in recess, being freaking retarded.
and of course, when i was in trouble, you were there too!
you supported me, you let me stay at your house when i didnt wanna go home yet,
sigh... i miss you.
so please, please dont tell me ur ignoring me cause your mad.

another happy post!
HI CHEAN SHUO! :)
I THINK YOUR REALLY CUTE AND HOT! :)
I LOVE YOUUUUUUUU XD
see youuuu in 2 days babe!! :)
lovesss youu!U!!!!

x

2010-03-27T07:22:00.000-07:00

hey guys!
sorry abt the last post
that was cheri!
yesh shes very self obsesed :)
hehe jokinggg i lovee you.

argh
why are you so sadhsldlahlhasdlsahdlsahdsl hdl confusing!
one minute your my bestie and next your a stranger!
god i dont know who you are anymore!
yeah and everything just bounces back to me and to you its always my fault!
ahhhhhh! you said i was your bestie! bestie? bullshit -.-
argh. i thought visiting would make things better
but guess what? a person that claims shes my so called bestie doesnt even have time to meet up with me. thanks. really thanks, besties you know, ditch each other even though they only see each other twice in a year. thanks so much -.-
thanks you've been sucha great bestie -.-

2010-03-26T01:08:00.001-07:00

CHERI IS AWESOME

2010-03-12T07:55:00.000-08:00

you have no cluee how confused right now...
someone tell me why?
whyy a few days before my birthday?
why the night before im gonna celebrate my birthday?
whyyy today?
whyy why why...
i guesss i kinda jinx it when i broke your ipod..
but i dont get it.
why is love so hard?
maybe its fate.
like cheri said whenever something bad happens, something good would replace it, and i'll forget about it.
and like allissa said everythingg happens for a reason
and like i alwayss say every start has an end.
and maybee this was just a mistake, even though it might have been a really worth it mistake.
ever since it happened, school became more and more dramatic.
but... to me, it was all worth it. they were all worth it.
even though i spent all my tears on you, you did really make me happy.
andd i really dont know whats gonna happen next
but just so you know, i really did like you alot, maybe more than like.
i fell for you really hard.
but now that its all over, i just have to try my best to stop everything..
x

2010-02-26T04:44:00.000-08:00

heyy guys!
so i was going through my memory box
yeshh.. i have this box full of pictures, letters, cards basically everything.
that box is full of soo much memories..
from 2008 till now..
wow.. so many memories.
somee are from you.
those are the ones that make me feel so crappy.
promise are there just to be broken arent they?
on the last day you wrote me a letter
saying whatever happens you'll always be by my side.
is that true?
why cant i see that happening now?
whenever i tell you stuff, you dont support me.
many ppl said you changed and your like different in a bad way but i keep going no! shes my bestie and shes not a bitch! shes nice!
i always knew this would happen to us.
its hard right? its hard to keep a friendship when you guys are so far apart.
i barely get to see you but when i finally get back, sometimes you dont even care.
in october when i got back, you just left after the movie.
i cant believe you did that, i was hoping all 4 of us could like have fun, take stickypics, shop and those stuff. but you just left, i was really disappointed you know? i just never told you..
and like the first time i came back.. its easterr.
erm you wrote a letter to me, i still have it. You wrote in it, i just wanted to let you know, whatever happens you'll always have a bestie in singapore.
bestie? idk anymore.
friends? idk either
strangers? more like it..

2010-02-23T06:15:00.000-08:00

hey guys!
I havent been posting for a while...
so here i go!

I LOVE CHUCK!!
:) im a chuck addict now..
finishedd 1 season and 9 episodes in 3 days
hehhe. i know i know its bad, i gotta control myself
BUT HEY! I FINISHED ALL MY HW BEFORE I START HAVING MY CHUCK TIME! :)
hehehe.

well schools really really nice now! :)
and i lovee school like this :D
haha maybe year 8 is gonna be thee best yearr! :D
oh got reports back today... suckkss baalllls x(

well in these 2 years, i've lost quite a few friends...
you know who you guys areee..
i doubt you'll read this but..
you weree my best friend, i trusted you alot
you said you'll always always be there for me
i really treated you like my best friendd..
but now its sooooo different! dont say i changed, please dont cause you did too!
we dont talk at all anymore...
now when i talk to you i feel like you dont wanna talk
hey, you know its hard for me too right?
i've been trying sooo hard to keep things alright for us.
i really did. i tried my very best but somehow it doesnt work.
maybe its fate? i dont know why.. but our friendship has like huge bumps in it..
i remember when i became your friend in the beginning of that year,
some ppl started hating me cause they didnt like you and therefore that led to not liking me.
well honestly i didnt care, i thought they were just being stupid and immature.
but thenn not long later, we got into like real fights with others.
yeahh... you were there for me then, and i really really appreciated it
i started to trust you more and more thenn we became best friends.
halfway through the year, you got mad at me for god knows what.
i still havent gotten my answer till today, im not that interested anymore.
i remember that time. i was really sad, it was like my life was all messed up.
i tried to pull myself through but then everyday in school you would do something new
to crush me all over again. I was really scaredd... but then 2 of my friends tried to pull me through... she did manage to bring a few smiles when i was at school but at home whenenver i see your name i just wanna scream out loud and cry. But then i finally pulled myself through it thanks to those 2 ppl. They then became my bestie.They didnt really like you then.. but then suddenly you said sorry to me. I didnt know what to do, i was just like caught in the middle. But after a while i decided that i wouldd become friends with you again. Just friends though.. nothing more nothing less.. andd then everything seemed soo happy again... although i wasnt that close to you, i had these 2 besties that i knew i could count on till now i still know that whatever happens they'll always be there for me. Suddenly, you were close to me again. Then you ditched me again. Then i was really sad and mad. I managed through though cause it wasn't the first time it happened to us. But we became friends again. Everything seemed peaceful again. but then, i had to move. I had to leave everyone behind. I cried myself to sleep for nights, i knew i was gonna miss everyone. I tried to hide everything, pretending i was fine with it. But i wasnt, on the last day... i cried soo much. Thats probably the 1st time i cried for so long. At first i was fine.. but then i saw you cry. I went up to you asked if you were okay, you kept crying. You told your friend to tell me that you were crying cause of me. Then i started crying... and then my besties started crying too... i would never forget that day. Then we started hanging out really often in my last 2 weeks there. Thats when we became so close again and eventually we became best friends again. But then now... i look back, and i wish only if i had a little more time maybe everything would be fine..
you say im still your best friend but i know thats just lies.
i tried sooo hard to keep us as friends, i tried soo hard.
but know i think i've tried enough.. its time for you to try a little bit,
"best friend"

2010-02-14T05:09:00.000-08:00

todayy is the 14th of february, the day of love.
someone tell me im not dreaming, even if it was.. i hope i never wake up.
from the day i met you, there was this feeling inside of me.
im so happy 07/10/09 happened.
the only reason im so happy right now is because of you and of course my besties(:
your not just any boy to me you know?
everytime i see you, you make me smile
everytime we talk, you make my day
everytime im gonna hang with you, the night before i get soo excited, theres like butterflies in my stomach flutteringg. i just cant get enough of you.
your the reason i cant sleep at night.
your the reason for the smile on my face everyday
:)
i love you fattie.
xoxo

2010-02-12T05:19:00.000-08:00

heeyy everyonee! :)
its chinese new year holidays now! :)
time flies so fast!
very soon it'll be easter!
then summer! :O
well today was fun XD
soo after school cheri,alwin, drew and i hanged a little in like the 7 11 place
and thenn alwin left
and thenn drew left
so cheri and i went to causewayy ;D
walked walked walked :P
hk records! bought jennifer's body
and then bought baking stuffies
and went to cheri's house!
we watched jennifer's body!
it was really freaky! likeee body eatingg! and really intense!
hahaha after thatt we baked! brownies!
but they got burntt... failed :P
andd yeahhh! :P
hehe it wass a fun fun funnn day!! :)

well to everyone out there
happy chinese new year!
and of course
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY (:

hey there special someone,
happy valentines day
i love you
:)

x

when im with you i'll make every second count cause i'll miss you when your gone.

2010-02-06T07:32:00.000-08:00

hey guys! :)

lastt night
was thee valentines day dance :)

it was fuckinngg awesome!

probably gonna be one of the best days in my lifeee

hehehe

iloveyou<3.

thanks for the presents i really really loved it :D

& thanks for alwayss keeping me happy

yourr probably the reasonn why im soo happy now xD

yeshh maybe we had our bad times and our difficulties

but in the end of the day you gotta know i do love you(:

causee your the sweetest, your the cutest, your the nicest, your the most caring, you always make me smile, you light up my days, you always keep me happy, youu have the best heart

most of all... your the best boyfriend ever :)

<3.

i havee no life :P

im trying to keep the roses alivee

i likeee put it in a fridge cause my mom said that flowers die slower in a cold place

yeshhh... im weird :P

hehe

welllssss.. valentines day dance

was awesome

its one of the best dance ever! :)

hahaha ohhhh and afterr next week

ITS CNY! :)

and VALENTINES DAY!

hahah i cant wait till the holidays!

takingg a breakk from everything :)

no more work, no more pressure

no more tests :)

awesomee:D

BYEEEE! LOVEYOUUALL!!

2010-02-03T04:51:00.000-08:00

hey guyss!:)
lifee is pretty awesome these few days :)
hahahaha i loveeeeeyouuu and you and you! :)
hahah i've been goingg through my little memory box
andd i saw lotsa stuff
i kinda miss year 7 :O
andd i was going through all my old photos on fb
oh god i miss year 7.
not the best year but i still miss it :P
hahaha
im starting to really like 8A :)
hahah weee rawkk:D
our studyy group is so fun :D ahahhaa

yesterdayy was really fun! :)
hahha justina, cheri telly and i went to causewayy bay together ;)
but but justina lost her wallett
so whoeverrr took it
PLEASE GIVE IT BACK TO HER! :)
ohh we went to zaraa ;)
thenn BERSKHA:)
hehe berskha was likee really funn
sadllyy i didnt getta buy anythingg cuase nothingg really nice :P
THEN THENNNN YOOGOOO!:)
mango ftw<3.
hehe. i hadd so much funn with youguyss! ily! (:

cheriii (:
i toldd youu it would happen
you guys are so cutee you know? :)
hahaha

imfallinggdeeper&deeperrr
inloveewithyou.
youalwayssmakemesmilee
youkeepmehappyy
youuuulightupmydays<3.
happyy4monthhsonsundday(:
x

easter easter easter
please im beggin you
to come quick :)
i cant wait till your here :)

2010-01-22T07:03:00.000-08:00

so much for a best friend.
you saidd i changed
but you know what? you did too.
im not the only one that changed.
we used to be able to talk for hours and hours but now its just so different.
andd if your gonna blame it on me moving like you did last time.
thenn just leave it, i dont wanna hear that.
its always the same things..
"you changed" "your not like before" "your so different now"
well i cant say i didnt change but everyone changes andd
whenever i try to talk to you like we did before
you just piss me off so badly, i just dont tell you.

give up? or continuing trying?
you tell me..
i tried so hard alr.. its your turn to try a little harder.
best friends? bullshit.

2010-01-21T05:58:00.000-08:00

why isn't reality like dreams?
why aren't there happy endings to life?
why is life sucha fail?
why? someone tell me why.

life never runs smoothly does it?
x

2010-01-17T05:45:00.000-08:00

i dont know what to say right now..
love makes you hold on to stuff you shouldnt
if only you knew how i felt but i guess you wouldnt give a fucking shit about it.

when i was little, my parents used to read stories to me.
why are all those stories not like how life is right now?
why isnt there a happy ending to everything?
why cant i be happy?

i hatee life where it is now.
if i knew so many things were gonna happen, I'd give anythingg to go back and take a different route.

x

2010-01-01T19:12:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR! (:

soo i just decided to blog with color:DD
haha anywayys
new year, new changes, new life, new attitude, new things, new everything.
2010,
hope its gonna be good :)

byebye 2009
i'll miss you. :)

happy new year everyone <3.

2009-12-19T16:38:00.000-08:00

hey guys!
havent post in a quite a while!
so christmas break is here
not really a bad thing but not a great thing eitherr
soo this past week!

FRIDAY!
hahaha hanged with starr! :)
went to ifc! yomama<3.
thenn we took a taxi to cotton on and h&m
hahah yeah we didnt know how to walk there :P
hehehe tried on clothes and stuffies x)
THERES SO MANY NEW SEX DRESSES
whatsup with zippers this year?
thenn we went to times square!
we were pretty hyperr x)
and thenn STAR ZEE GOT EVEN HYPER-ER
cause we ran into like lots of peoplee
and thenn we went to hang with some sis people!
and toastt box! :)) hehe
oh and we were tiredd after likee a long time of walking around sooo we sat outside zara XD yeshh we did ;D
heheh and we realized that times square floors vibrate!
it doesss! it really does! :P

THURSDAY
hmm it was dress casual
thursday was okay.. didnt do muchh
andd new mmoon with people.. it was okay.
lols yeap!

hahaha im not gonna be bothered to blogg about wednesday,tuesday and mondayy cause i cant really remember what happened :P
sooo christmas break so far is okayy
but kindaa boringg! :(
I MISS YOUUU and youu and you too! :(
lovesx

You Know You're in Love When You Can't Fall Asleep Because Reality Is Finally Better than Your Dreams

2009-12-07T05:39:00.001-08:00

hey people!
todays okay okay i guess
some happy parts and some sad parts.
lifes like that once your happy somethingg BAD must must haappen
its just like a circle its just like you can never be an innocent little happy girl.
hahah.

good parts
today was really fun:)
i hadd loads of funn i guess.
hahaaa

bad parts
homes supposed to be somewhere you can escape from alll that drama isnt it?
its supposed to be where you can be reallly happy and free.
but guess what? in my world home is hell.
you knoww what i cant be bothered to even be mad anymore
hahahaa
and yyou stop appearing in my dreams
stop making me think of you
cause i dont regret what i did.
eff off. dont come back.
i dont need you not anymore.

byee!

maybe possibly

2009-12-03T04:41:00.000-08:00

HEYY GUYSS!
guess what?
THIS WEEK WAS AWESOME:)
heehe its like my HAPPY WEEK(:
haahaha i havent had SOOO MUCH fun for sucha long time :DD
hehehe i used to hate mondayss
but i love mondays now :)
CAUSE...!
1st december (this mon): good stuffies happened :)
7th december (next mon): 2 MONTHS<3.
14th december (next next mon): GRACES IS COMMING TO VISIT ME :)

hehehe see how mondays are now?
so awesome yeah? :)
TOMORROW IS THE DANCE!
we're hangingg then dance class thenn preparee for dance then DANCE!
woot:) i cant wait!
so excitedd :)
hahahhaa sooo im really bored noww
supposed to be doing hw
but i'll do it later!
xD hehee

cause you'll always make me smile

2009-11-22T00:25:00.000-08:00

OMGGG 30 DAYSS LEFT!
4 more lessonss to practice...!!!!
4 MORE WEEKS..!!!!
answayyss...!!!
STARS BIRTHDAYY WAS 2 DAYSS AGO:)
andd soo HAPPY LATE BDAY STAR ZEE!:)
I LOVE YOU! <3.

hahaha so.. this weeekk was pretty boring :P
exceptt friday! cause it was star's bday!:)
OMG.. IM SO FREAKING BORED NOW!
blehh! okayyy!
bored bored boredd
finished all my hw due on mondayy:)
SUCHA GOOD GIRL YEAH? :)
hehhehe
im sooo boreedd
someone save me from this boredness!!!

(: iLOVEyou!

2009-11-07T06:46:00.000-08:00

HELLOOO!(:
SCHOOL FAIR!
schooll fair was fun!:)
heehe. nic and i went up to star's dad
and said he was cool :DD
SO HE GAVE US FREE FOOD:)
heheehe
and justinaa! i love her shirt! :) and i donated all my coins to her :DD
cheri..!! hmm i wonder why you got all the same colors as me! :P jk its justt a coincidence:D
jassy! she was gorgeouss:)
BLAH BLAH BLAH.
basically i didnt spend on anything else BUT food :)
HAHAH YESH I KNOW IM FAT.
lovessxx

ONE MONTH(: you know ily<3.

2009-11-01T02:14:00.001-08:00

heyya!(:
yesterday was halloween!:D
halloween was awesome:DDD
loveyou all:)
hmmm so.
FACEBOOK HAS NOTHINGG TO DO.
yesh its so freaking boringg :(
blahhh..
erm so singaporee friends just finishedd school!
they get likee a 3 month holiday :(
soo they finished primary school :(
going to sec school?
SO MANY OF YOU GUYS ARENT GOING BACK TO MGS :(
so heree..!!

Chean Shuo: hey girl! even though your gonna go to sec school and all those stuffies, your not allowed to forget me okay? and remember to wear the matching necklaces we have :) i wont ever forget the memories we had together and those prank callss :DD. and and you'll always be my shopping buddy:). and suntec wouldnt be the same if you didnt come cause i'll be in sucha awkwardd position. and believe in yourself, your gonna get back into MGS. you can do it(: omfg i just realized i have never gotten into a fight with you :O & dont over spendd!! best friends forever loveyou(: i miss you alr :(

Graces: HELLO(: i knoww that we have been in really bad conditions butt its FINALLY CLEARED(: you gotta update me with your life! andd tell me which school you get into okay? i bet you could do better than MGS(: dont worry about your results yet, keep having fun in your holidays(: 5.4 would never be the same without you(: KEEP ON SMILING! lovesx

Charlotte: HII!(: i had so much fun with you in vivo(: and thee sex dressess xP forever 21(: have fun SOTA and dont ever forget me! goodluck with you know what! i miss you alr :( andd WEAR THE DRESS WE BOUGHT TOGETHERR! ahaha when i go back to singapore and hangout with you you better be wearing that dress okay? :) andd 5.4 me, you, nat, melanie was awesome:) we had our fights but its all over. ): im gonn miss you soo much :( lovesx

Elizabeth: HAII!(: ahaha i can alwayss text you for hours and hours and hours and neverr ever get bored! andd stop being all sad and all! you gotta start to SMILE more(: hahaha update me with your life okay? i'll tell you everything thats happeningg to me too! im gonna miss you so muchh and i alr do a littlee! i hate how you guys are gonna leave each otherr, andd then one day 5.4 will be forgotten :( and everyone would just live on with their lifes and forget everything that happened:(( dontt forget me! lovesx

Nathalie: HI! i dont like you :( your going to siingapore sports schooL! thats not fairr! i wont ever get to see you unless i come back on weekends! :( thankss soo friking much for 5.4 i think i said that alottt of times but still thanks(: hopee everything goes well for you in singapore sports school! and when you grow olderr and become a nationall bowling player DONT FORGET ABT ME! im gonna miss you :( and that talkk on the phone on sundayy night! you almost made me cry :( stay strong always okay? best friends till the end of time<3. lovesx

Brenda: HI BIRD! yourr by farr the personn that i keep in touch with thee most:D hahah lols kindaa ish :P soo update me with all thats happeningg with you okay? :) SBS birdy:) hahhaa 5.4 wont be the same without you either (: dont ever forget me cause i wont either(: love you!

Aubrey: HII(: i had soo much fun with you and brendaa!(: im missing you both alr :( UPDATEE MEE! tell me all about school and life and all those stuff okay? :P your gonna get back into MGS trust me:) be confident:) dont forgettt me! i'll keep writing/msn-ing you okay? :) lovee alwayss<3.

5.4'08 we'll always be connected, ilyg!

2009-10-28T05:19:00.000-07:00

hey guys!
hmm wednesdayy are just getting better and better:))
haha i used to hate wednesdayss cause wednesdays were like my crazyy busy dayy!
but so many GOOD things happened on wednesdayys now!
hahhaaa im so boredd noww!
i had a hugee headachee just noww
probablyy cause i did work in the carr -.-
blah oh and my sis's pencil cases (2 of them)
got stolenn? shes so screwed
her stuff are freaking expensive :P
hahhaa i cant wait till halloween(:
and justinaa you failed in homeroom today agaiN!
ishh :P hehee hes scared of me now! and he wont ever bug me ever again
hahaha anyways whatsup with sex dresses now adayss?!
i go shoppingg and i see like sooo many dresses with a zip from the top to the bottom xD
hehehe nudge nudge *charlotte, gillian, justinaa, star*
HEHEHE starr sucha pervertt now adays x)
hahaha okay im retardedd byeee guys!
lovessxxx

Why travel back to amend a broken past when you can carry on and build a
better future?

2009-10-26T05:28:00.000-07:00

HEY GUYSS!(:
IM BACKKK!:)
hehe singapore was awesome!
well not that awesomee really short trip but yeah!
OMGG I DIDNT BUY MUCH:(
i only bought a feww things :(
but there wasnt much timee so yeah :P
sooo it was like this:
FRIDAYY:
oncee i got off the plannee i was hyper hehe
i was jumping up and downn cause i was soo happy i was in singapore xD
thenn we went to the hotell but our rooms werent ready yet :(
soo i went to aubs housee
and then we watched BOF and waited for brendaaa to come :D
okayy i'll skip the boring parts xD
OKAY SO WE WENT TO WILD WILD WET :)
yes be jealous guys! HEHE
soo we played aroundd and went on those slidess and stuffies!
IT WAS SO FREAKING FUNN XD
and thenn it was time :( so we showereddd
ahahha omg so when me and brenda was done showering (aubs was still showering)
we went out and get our stuff from the lockerr
and idk why we were just like walkingg and we accidentally went into the guys showeringg place
HAHAH OMG then i pulled brenda out and we started laughing xD
andd we had pizza hut! and kfc cheese fries xD :)
I HAD SOO MUCH FUN WITH AUBS AND BRENDA(:
ILOVEYOUGUYS!:)
haha so after that we went to bukit timah plaza
and i had to goo, so i took a cab to auntie juliets housee
:) BUDDY! hahha so her dog is called buddy hes the cutest :)
soo joyce was there when i just reached:) we played with buddy
and talkedd! lols and my parents were like really late :P
so we ended up eating dinner really latee
and blah blha blah when i went back to the hotell
i was really sleepy and joyce was hyper -.-
ohh and the rooms are hugee:P
anywayss we watched tvv and then i went to sleep :)

SATURDAYY:
sooo i went out with charlotte gilliann and jared:)
hahha gilliann and i were soo retarded xD
hahha so we went to vivo :)
and we saw like these 2 girls that were like sluts
so we rann across them and shouted SLUTT!
they didnt look at us though :P
jared was like you should run and point at them and shout slut xD hahaha
hahah omg and whenn this guy was on the stage thinggy talking
we shouted ILY!
hahahaha he laughedd xD lolss
yeahh we were retarded :P
OMGG I WENT TO FOREVER 21 XD
HAHAHAH OMGG i found a better SEX DRESS XD
hehe there was like a zipper from the top of the dress to the bottom
i was like OMG THATS SUCHA SEX DRESS! haha
and then gillian and charlotte laughhedd
oh and they got their graduation party dresses!:)
yeshh i love that shop! and topshoP! ahahah but i didnt buy much
all i bought wass 1 thing from forever 21 :))
lols andd i went to river island! i lvoe that shop too!
but i didnt buy anything again! :(( hahhaa
anywayss i had a blast
ilyg!
:)

SUNDAY:
hahaha i was like really excited for thiss day to comeee!:)
heheh causee then i could see CHEAN SHUO!(:
but it was kinda faill... lolss
we watched the meatballs 3D movie!
i was thinking wrong :P butt im sorry
NATHALIE GAN WAS EATINGG A SAUSAGE INFRONT OF ME!
lolsss yeahh i kept laughingg :P
oh and chean shuo waas supposed to like keep me away from shopping
but we failed we kept on going like OMG LOOK AT THAT SHOP!
OMG LOOK AT THAT! hahah i love you chean! :P
soo after thatt we split up
i went to chean shuo's house :))
haha we prank called like loads of ppl xD
some of them got like really pissed xD
it was so freakingg funny x)
ehehhe we're so awesomee
okayy i had so much fun on sundayy!
I LOVEE CHEAN SHUO, ELIZABETH AND NATHALIE (:
hahaaa

MONDAYY!:
haha so i woke up pretty earlyy, showeredd..
and took a cab to MGS!(:
hahaha soo it was like breakk time for them :)
andd i went to brenda's class 1st!
melaniee was being a meanie!
haha well shes better than before! :P
shes changed xD
and theennn i went to chean shuo's class!
:) andd of coursee i went around with them xD
haha omg olivia was like scaring away the people that kept staring at mee (cause i wasnt in school uniform) hHAHAHA!
it was so freakiingg funny xD
hahah but time flies:(
soon i had to leavee
and blah blah blah stuff
so now im at boring old hongkong:((
loveesx

best friends forever&always:)

2009-10-21T06:16:00.000-07:00

hey guys! :)
im so bored now :P
hehe i cant wait till friday!
2 MORE DAYSS(:
anywayss
LIFES GREAT!(: AND MIDTERMS AWESOME:)

monday:
HAD A BLAST WITH YOU GUYS!
so me and nic went shopping in the morning before we went to the beach
:) she bought stuffies and i did too :DD
and then we met up with jassy and allissa
we took a taxi to repulse bay beach and met up with alwin ad jeremy
thenn we went into the sea hehee
we saw people xDDD
and then we played in the beach
and WE BURRIED AD! and all the touris were like
omggg :P they wantedto take pics xD WE MADE AD FAMOUS!:)
hehee

tuesday:
HUGE SHOPPING DAYY(:
heheh well not that huge but yes :D
i met justina and star at yo mama in ifc
YOMAMA IS THE BEST(: hehe
and then we tried to walk to cotton on
which we failed and then we had to take a taxi and the driver was like WTF
YOU JUST NEED TO WALK 1 MINUTE
OPS. lols soo we went to h&m justinaa bought some stuff
AND I DIDNT(: I MADE THE RIGHT CHOICE:)
hahaha cause then we went to cotton on!
ANDD IT WAS FILLED WITH GOOD STUFF:)
hahah we tried on like ALOT of clothes :))
and i bought some stuff
AND JUSTINA LOOKED SOO FREAKING HOT IN HER DRESS!
no joke!:) and then we bought all our stuff
andd went back to ifc WE SUCEEDED:) and camwhoreee:)

2WEEKS(: ily<3

2009-10-16T21:01:00.000-07:00

HEY GUYS!(:
lolss ITS FINALLY MID-TERM!
but cause of camp i sleep early!:(
and i wake up pretty early too!
and my laptop brokee down :( nidda bring it to the repair place!
so yesterdayy was pretty fun :DDD
after the great racee
cheri,jassy,alwin,daniel,ad and i went to PP:)
hehe WE WENT TO YO MAMA(:
thats the best place you can ever go to :DDD
hehe and then walked around pp
ate more food xD and then walk walk walk talk talk talk
until it was timee for us girls to go
and thenn we went to causeway bay
got some food and then went to dance. :)
i hadd so much fun!(:
and now that is mid term
we are so gonna hangout again :)
ILYG!(:

you are always gonna be in my heart, you are always gonna be
my love now and forever(:
angel & devil

2009-10-15T07:17:00.000-07:00

HEY GUYS!
IM BACK FROM CAMP!
its so awesome to be back!
camp was tiring but fun too :)
we couldnt take much showers though.. which was gross!
LOLS but kayaking and canyonning was pretty cool :)
heheehe and the camp camp (you guys who went will know what i mean)
was GROSS. LOLS bugs, mosquitos, worms blah blah blah
LOL its so gross but we had a campfire! :)
and nicnac got a bigg scratch on her chin!
ILY NICOLEE:) AND GET WELL SOON :D
and goodluck for your piano exam too :)
hehhe

falling a little too hard for you
im so glad i have you ily<3.

2009-10-06T04:42:00.000-07:00

ARGH
I HATE OUR CHINESE TEACHER.
FUCKING JERK.
make me miss lunch one more time
and your dead. ARGH HATEYOU SO MUCH!
anyways quizz!:P

100 Truths! Copy and paste, then put in your own answers. tag 15 people you're curious about and have them do the same.
1. last beverage→ apple juice!:)
2. last phone call→ ermm driver i think
3. last text message→ cheri or alwin
4. last song you listened to→ love drunk :P
5. last time you cried→ erm... lol erm like in lunch?!
SIX: HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice → nopee
7. been cheated on → =.=
8. kissed someone & regretted it→ =.=
9. lost someone special? → almost :P but we're fine now(:
10. been depressed? → of coursee
11. been drunk and threw up? → nopee
12. LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS: PURPLE!:),blue and pink
THIS YEAR(2009) HAVE YOU:
13. Made new friends → yeap(:
14. Fallen out of love → nope(:
15. Laughed until you cried → Nopee
16. Met someone who changed you → yeap! UCLA(:
17. Found out who your true friends were → erm kinda?
18. Found out someone was talking about you→ lols yeah
19. Kissed anyone on your friend's list→ nope
20. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life? → erm almost everyone? somee are like friends friend?
21. How many kids do you want to have→ 2! one girl one boy (:
22. Do you have any pets → sadly no :(( i want a doggie though
23. Do you want to change your name→ erm chinese name yeah :P
24. What did you do for your last birthday? → hangout and sleepover
25. what time did you wake up today →7?
26. What were you doing at midnight last night → erm in my lalaland?
27. Name something you CANNOT wait for → MY COUSIN TO LEAVE!
28. Last time you saw your father→ this morning
29. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? → ermm idk..
30. What are you listening to right now → TWO IS BETTER THAN ONE <33
31. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → dont think so
32. What's getting on your nerves right now? → erm cousin -.- and my fucking chinese teacher
33. Most visited webpage → YOUTUBEE(:
34. Whats your real name → Joelle
35. Nicknames→ jojo,jo,mojo-.-,jolly,jollio
36. Relationship Status → Single
37. Zodiac sign → PISCES:)
38. Male or female or transgender? → female
39. Elementary School? → victoria blah blah school LOL
40. Middle School → erm changed a few times SIS,MGS,CIS
41. High school → CIS
42. Hair color → dark dark dark brown
43. Long or short → erm middle!
44. Height → idk?
45. Do you have a crush on someone? → nah
46. What do you like about yourself? → im not self obsesed LOL
47. Piercings → ears:)
48. Tattoos → erm nope
49. Righty or lefty → Righty (:
FIRSTS :
50. First surgery → dont have any:)
51. First piercing → ears -.-
52. First best friends → wow dude.. i cant remember :P
53. First sport you joined → =.=
54. First pet → erm fishes? LOL cant remember the name
55. First vacation→ ahhh too long agoo!
56. First concert→ erm idk?
57. First Crush- erm idk?
RIGHT NOW:
58. Eating: eclipse
59. Drinking: nothing
60. listening to: gossip girl (: im watching it too
61.waiting for: cousin to shut the fuck up -.-
YOUR FUTURE : erm idk? haha
58. Want kids → yeap! 2! :)
59. Want to get married → sure
60. Careers in mind → fashion designerr or smth that gotta do with fashion xD
WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? :
68. Lips or eyes → BOTH!:P
69. Hugs or kisses → good hugs and amazing kisses :P
70. Shorter or taller → taller!
71. Older or Younger → definately older than me
72. Romantic or spontaneous – BOTH!(:
73. Nice stomach or nice arms→ hahha BOTH!
74. Sensitive or loud → erm a little of both :P
75. Hook-up or relationship → relationship.
77. Trouble maker or hesitant --> ermm more of a trouble maker LOL
HAVE YOU EVER :
78. Kissed a stranger → no.
79. Drank hard liquor → dont know?
80. Lost glasses/contacts → hahah yeah
81. Sex on first date → wtf? no
82. Broken 's someone's heart → dont thinnk so:)
83. Had your own heart broken → nope:)
85. Been arrested → nahh:) too innocent to be arrested:P
86. Turned someone down → lol idk?
87. Cried when someone died- nope haha
88. Like a friend In the same sex- WTF? NOPEEE!
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself → try to!
90. Miracles → yeap(:
91. Love at first sight → yeap(:
92. Heaven → yeshH!
93. Santa Claus → HAHA only little retards will :P
95. Kiss on the first date? → sure
96. Angels → yeah sure:P
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → ermm..
98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → nope
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? → on my blog!:P

haha yeah long quiz!:)

never gonna give up<3

2009-10-02T08:05:00.000-07:00

hey guys!
soo long weekend!:)
hehe erm
wednesday night was awesome!(:
hahha halloween at op was soo fun!:)
i was scared though! :P
hehe but i got better after a while! :)
haha we went to like alot of haunted houses :P
OMFG THERE WAS ONE WITH A LITTLE KID GHOST.
that scared the freak outta me!
i squeezed ppl really hard though xD hehehe
the ghost rider scared me too!
we all tried to act not scared or they'll scare us even more hheehe
and then robin was like are you a man or a woman
and the ghost got sooo pissed he went right up to robin and got out his "knife"
HAHAHHA me allissa and cheri just walked away from him xD
all the haunted houses were fun :) except the 1st one
cause we were all too scared!
they made us go to little tiny rooms with mirrors ALONE.!
like one person in that whole thingy!
i was scared that something would just pop outta the mirror
i swear if something did i would get a heart attack! LOL

so today... hmm
ITS 11:11 MAKE A WISH~
DONE:)
haha so today was really boring!
all i did was play games with my cousin!
like the whole day and then i had lessson and then i got a haircut!
lols its kinda short though :(
but not as short as nicole ip:)
HAHAH JOKES YOU KNOW ILY!
:))) so boredd now!!
BLAH DE BLAH.
i cant wait till mid term!:)
hehe im gonna have a blast in singapore:)
I'VE GOT EVERYTHING PLANNED OUT!:)
except for satt cause im not sure what i wanna do :P
hehe
ilyx

To my dearest cousin:
HAPPY 4TH BIRTHDAY HAZEL!:)
have a great
one(:
ily

2009-09-21T03:03:00.000-07:00

HIII PEOPLEE:D
IM SO HAPPY!(:
SCHOOL IS SHUT DOWN FOR A WEEK!
WOOOT WOOT!(:
I LOVE YOU PIGGY FLUU!(:
hhehehe
so if you guys are talking to me on msn or skypee
you will know
IM FRIGGING HYPERR
HEHEHEHE im soo happy!!(:
LALLALALA so happy!:) NEVER BEEN SO HAPPY FOR SOO LONG!(:
HEHEH PEOPLEE! LETS HANGOUT AND CELEBRATEE(:
oh godd im getting tooo hyper! LALALLAALA
ahahahaha NICOLLEE IP I LOVE YOU!!
HEHE YOUR HAIRCUT ISNT THAT BAD! ITS JUST SHORTERR
AND EMO-ER? :P
ONE WEEK TO HANGOUT!(:
:D AND SHOPP!(:
HEHEHEHE ANND WE GET TO SKIPP GEO!:)
WHICH IS AWESOMEE;D
causee i have so much geo assessements/assignments to do!
:D:D I LOVE YOU PIGGY FLU!(:
i wanna squeeze all you people tight!:D
TOO HAPPY TO CALM DOWN :D
lovesx

'Cause maybe it's true, that I can't live without you well maybe two is better than oneThere's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life and you've already got me coming undone and I'm thinking two, is better than one

2009-09-17T06:17:00.001-07:00

heyy ppl!
tmrs the dance!
but so many people arent goingg!:(
people GOGOGO!:)
hahaha
_____________
i've been thinking so hard about you,
why cant everything be going right?
its just so hard to stay strong you know?
all those times we've been together,
and the worst part is you're living in a different country than me.
it'll be much easier if i was where u were or you were where i was
but it isnt as simple as that anymore.
yeah we used to fight like quite alot
but it never goes more than a week!
now it feels like its forever! i cant just sit here and do nothing?
you know how sad it makes me sometimes? i just wanna burst into tears when i think about it!
this is the truth, i cant dont care at all.
dont deny the truth, everyone else knows that you treat me in wayy different way now.
you dont care how im doing in my new life, you dont care if i need anyone's help.
and that day when you told me what you thought of me on msn, i really wanted to cry you know? hearing from the person i cared the most about saying all those stuff to me?
it hurt alot. all those insults.. being all different... you know every word hurt me..
cause really it isnt a big deal that i changed cause everyone changes when they move somewhere.. just a matter of how much..
well i just want to say to you.. even though you wont listen to me..
i'll always be there for you
x

where are you when i need someone?

2009-09-10T06:09:00.000-07:00

hey guys!
omg so today was so scary!:(
soo i was kinda brokee after i wentt homee
but then i had to go to ermm universal trade centre
normally when i take a taxi to universal trade centre its like 30 bucks.
but thenn the taxi driver went to the wrong place..!!!
and i only had like 50 bucks so i was so freaking scared i wont have enough money
LUCKILY the taxi fare was 47 dollars!:)
but then that meant i couldnt go homee! i only had 3 dollars!
i was soo scared! so after class it was like 7:45ish? going to 8?!
OMGG IT WAS SO DARKK. i didnt walk home it was too farr!
butt when i was getting panicy my mom called me and asked if she could pick me up!
i was so happy! litterally i was jumping up and down!:P
my teacherr was staring at me and was thinking wtf is she doing xD
hahah well i was so luckY! or i wont be able to go homee!
______________________
do you know how much you wreck my heart?
i may not have been best friends with you for a really long time
but that is probably the 1st friendship i've tried SO hard to keep!
i dont get it, why is it that the more you love that person, the more you guys fight?
isnt it just so unfair? oh wait i forgot, life is unfair.
nothings perfect... guess its just me holding on to you now.
i try to pretend im alright but really inside im not
i had so many things to tell you and so much more laughter i wanted to share!
whos gonna be the one always helping me study for an exam now?
whos gonna motivate me? whos gonna tell me what to do when i have no clue what to do?
whos gonna go hyper with me when i get back? whos gonna stop me from using too much money now?
you know.. you were really important to me..
we had our misunderstandings, arguements, silly fights
but those times i knew everything would be fine, i've never been so scared to lose someone.
i asked someone yesterday why cant we hold on to our old friends while keeping our new ones.
she told me i'll find out how one day she said she knows i would.
but what if its too late? what if i cant keep holding on anymore?
cause the more i hold on the more it hurts..
sometimes i just do some stuff that i dont really like just for you..
and your birthday.. i did all i could.. and guess what.. i didnt even deserve a "thank you".
i know i did many mistakes before but why must my punishment be another fight with you?
i really dont wanna end my friendship with you..
we were best friends, you were probably the bestest friend i could ever find and i ever had.
i tried everything already.. tell me what i need to do, i'll do it immediately.
____________________________
problems, problems and more problems...
cant my life just give me a break?
i know i've never been through THAT MUCH.
but really? once a problem is solved i get another one?!
WTF?! its really hard to stay strong..
andd of course theres STILL YOU!
argh. im gonna go crazy!
dudeee! i miss you!:(
i miss the dancee! i miss hugging you before you left!
i miss the bonfire! and the piggy back rides!
and the star at night we saw that night together!
i miss getting to see you everyday!
ahhhhhhhhhh! someone save me from life!
x

i wish that we could be best friends once again....

2009-09-09T07:10:00.000-07:00

you probably never will read these posts
but tell you what, everything i said was true.
and guess what? i meant every word and every sentence i said.
and believe it or not i might be still holding on to that little bit of hope
its just unfair how everytime we fight you can stab me so deep
its like you were a part of me and when its gone i feel like im not complete...
we used to be so much different,
of course i changed, the surroundings are so different now so of course i will change too.
you changed too maybe just slightly but you know what in easter
although you said all those nasty things about me and my changes, i still got really excited to finally get to see you. Who was the one who said she never wanted to forget me?
who was the one who promised she wont forget me?
promises are just lies wrapped in pretty ribbons yeah?
and on your birthday, i did everything i could to wish you happy birthday
and what did i get back? nothing, not even a "thank you"
alot of people said everything will be fine..
but you tell me will it be fine?
x

so much for best friends forever

2009-09-08T04:31:00.000-07:00

heyy guys!
new blogskin!
hahah its been a long time since i've changed it!
lols so many people have been sick!
theres like 6-7 people sick everyday!
our classes are like empty!
hahah class is pretty boring though
like we just go to class sit down and study
it used to be much different! like there will be so much fun in class!
all the jokes and all the people in 7B! iloveyouguys!:)
____________________________
why is it that we cant keep our old friends while having new friends?
i dont get it.. i really dont
i try all the time to keep our friendship close
but it just seems like im the only one that wants this friendship to go on.
you said that you dont know me anymore
but have you ever tried to accept the new me?
have you looked a little closer than the outside?
have you seen the inside of me? i guess not
you might think i dont care about you at all
but trust me i do, everyone knows i do.
in 5.4 you probably was the only person that supported me all the way
we had our fights and silly arguements but in the end of the day we'll be fine
but this time it just seems like we're floating away
its like our hearts arent connected like before anymore..
why is this happening to us? why us?
do you think we could start all over again?
x

just keep wishing and believing, cause if you believe or wish hard enough,
what you want will come true<3.

2009-09-06T08:00:00.000-07:00

hiies(:
im much happier todaY!
:) for many reasons
esp star!
she cracked me up :D
ily! EWW NOO I DONT
hahah jokes ily xu xing xing :D
and and nicolee ip:D and cheri too!! :)
hahha thankss nicole:) i know you're the only one who can actually get what im going through:)
ilyyy! andd sorry for breaking up with you
HAHHHAHA
andd cheri thanks for all the encouragements!
anddd i wanna sayy what i wanted to writee on the stickypicss but you didnt let me yeah!
hope it does happen:)
lallaala
omgg so todayy i was deleting memories!
hahah well i didnt really wanna remember those memories!
:) i found like really old memory sticks for cameras!
so i went through them! its so old! it was like 2 years ago!
holy shit we all look so different!
i think that was stilll 4.4? lols si si! :P
hahha i found a pic of me with wu lao shi!
and like some project pics i think that was china town!
:) and JOSEPHINE! you didnt change at all! :O
andd the girl that got mad at me for being ahem's friend:)
WELL GUESS WHAT
I DONT LIKE YOU(: hahaha
lols i thought it'll hurt by letting you go
but in fact i wasnt bothered by it ;)
it was actually a better choice for me:)
i loved my life after getting rid of you BAHAHHA :D
i feel so evil!:D
ahhaaha I HAD DIN DIN AT AMC!:)
YESSHH THEY HAVE THE BEST DESSERTS EVER:D
I GOTT CHEESECAKEE;D i loveed it:D
hehehe i sound like sucha fatty!:P
blahh
oh and yesterday was the weirdest day ever
kept bumping into ppl
and my dad kept telling me he knows my friends parents from long agO! :O
like in the morningg he said he knew max's parents from longg agoo
and then i think i saw nathan from camp!
:) lols i think so i just past by someone that looked exactly like him
and i was like i swear hes nathan
and thenn i bumped into
christie! jassy's cousin
and also star zee's friend:)
andd andd at night my dad told me he knows denis's dad from before too!:O
lols life is pretty weird isnt it?
hahaa
so me and nicole are making a list from A to Z
with pervy words!:) hehe
we're missing W,Q,O,L,K,J,I yeap thats it!:)
ehhee ily all!
xoxo

why do we love the people who ignore us and ignore the people who love us?

2009-09-05T07:59:00.000-07:00

when i thought year 8 was good
i was wrong..
now to think of it..
i dont really like where i am now
i liked where i was before, life was simpler
yeah maybe i wouldnt see my parents at all then
but now to think of it, i rather "give them up" for you..
i really dont know what to say now...
i remember the time i left.
and we were all crying..
and we promised no matter what happens we'll never ever forget each other and stay best friends forever, and when we got married and had kids, you'll be my kid's godmom and i'll ur kid's godmom.
it just doesnt feel right without you now..
esp when i talk to you.. you kinda just ignore me.
dont deny it, i know you enough to say that you're starting to dislike me..
i might not know you for a very long time but you were all i got in 2008..
and you know that.
best friends? i dont think so..
at this point.. i dont even think we're friends anymore..
if we keep on going like this one day we're just gonna end up being strangers..
you know im trying hard.. but you dont seem to care like you did before anymore..
you have no idea how guilty i feel for changing..
________________________
life is so unfair.. i just fixed up my problems
and BOOM! i get more:(
its like someone is setting up my life and controlling it
its like they dont want me to be happy
and of course theres you
i dont mean it in a bad way
but the more i think about you the more my heart aches
you have no clue how much it hurtts sometimes
and knowing that i dont see you much anymore it hurts more.
im really afraid you'll turn out to be just like everyone else
players? jerks?
people who only manages to tear my heart into pieces..
i cant controll who my heart likes but why does it have to be you?
:(

2009-09-04T05:45:00.000-07:00

HEY GUYS!
soo today is jackie's birthday!:)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACKIE!:)
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYONE IN THE WORLDD:D
HEHE
______________
im sorry i cant go on monday
and maybe you'll be dissapointed with me and all
but trust me i was really happy thinking that i could see you soon.
when i heard that i cant go, i was really pissed..
but then again, if we were meant to be i'll see you soon.
i dont know whether im ever gonna see you again
it depends on fate. i guess we're just not meant to be?
i always hope that you could be the one.. but i dont know anymore...
lets leave it to fate now...
i frikking feel like crying now..
listening to best i ever had by drake..
it brings back so many memories..
have i fallen too hard for you?
too hard that i cant stop thinking about you?
too hard that whenever i forget about you another guy with the same exact name as you pops out?
yes or no?
lets leave it to fate.
x

best i ever had- drake. reminds me of you...

2009-08-31T02:01:00.000-07:00

why must everything remind me of you?
just today when i finally could stop thinking about you and all the times we went through together, the team pie guy thingy came and introduced himself and all and then guess what his name was the same as yours :(
this is not fairr give my head a breakk! dont keep comming in please?
its getting fustrating..
someone told me to tell you but should i?
why cant this situation be so much easier?
i really dont know what to do..
i feel like giving up but then again i see something that reminds me of you...
and all those arguements..
i can remember all of those..
i remember the time when we argued and i threw ur hat away..
whyy? why must it be you? cant it be someone else?
cause i dont think things will turn out to be how i want them to be...
imy still
x

"sweat pants hair tied chilling with no make up on
thats when your the prettiest i hope you dont take that
wrong" that always remind me of you..

2009-08-30T07:53:00.000-07:00

SUMMER LOVE.
those 2 words always remind me of you..
i dont know why but its you.
theres no many people in the world and it had to be you!
why you? why the person i loved to fight with in the start?
in the beginning i thought you were a selfish stuck up snobbish jerk
but after those 3 weeks togetherr i think ur really sweet nice and really kind...
i remember the 1st time we met.
we talked and all but it was kinda awkward..
and and the 2nd llast day i think.. the bonfire beach place thingyy
piggyback rides and and lying on the beach looking at the stars in the sky
everything always reminds me of YOU
out of a million billion people why youu?
blah i just dont get it.
for once i miss you
and i miss the hug i gave you on the day you left.
blah havent hanged out with you in a long time
not that long actuallyy
its just that i have effing school
see you soon?
imyx

2009-08-28T19:13:00.000-07:00

hey guys!
yesterday was really fun :)
hehe
so after school me cheri jassy and my sister took cheri's car to my house
talked in the carr :)
and then when we reached my hse i went and have piano lessons
soo joyce jassy and cheri talkedd
anddd thenn we went down to dancee class
which i am so screwed..
LOL but jassy was like lets skip a bit of dance class and go eat siu mai!
hahah so we ate..
thenn went up the lift
and when the lift open in the 3rd floor
jassy and cheri ran to one corner XD
haha and then 6th floor
we were late for dance xP
andd dance dance dance..
yeap and then cheri left after that
and me and jassy walked to excelsiors to find her dad
her car is blue nott blackk.
and then took a taxi home.
:)
omgg im so screwed for dance..
its like theres 3 parts
i didnt learn the 1st part
i cant remember the 2nd part
and im sure next lesson i'll forget the 3rd part
LOL
:)
anyways.. school
its okay lah.
but no fun in classes
i miss 7B :D
oh and i also fucking hate our new chinese teacher.
chen lao shi was so much better -.-
fuck our new teacher
:)
x

still thinking about you day and night (: imyx

2009-08-26T07:21:00.000-07:00

hey guys!
sorry for not posting for a very long time :P
hehe so year 8?
its not that bad actually. but i still miss 7B :(
i mean i like my study group and all but then theres no fun :(
but i guess towards the end i'll learn to like it (:
hahha
but the bad thing is WE GET SO MUCH HW :(
and the lunch line is so longg!
haha and its because of the new year sevens :(
they eat too slow! :(
then we have to wait wait waitt. blah
btwww i love you all at UCLA TOO :D
miss you guysx

imissyoux stars.night.beach.hugs:) piggybackridestoo.

2009-08-08T04:43:00.000-07:00

HEY GUYS(:

short postt.

i just wanna say

OMGGG ITS 8TH OF AUGUST!:)

ONE YEAR(:

you guys in singapore will get mee :)

sorry i cant be with u guys today..

i really want to but my parents wont let me :(

i miss you guys <3.

esp graces and chean shuo :)

ilyy<3.

2009-06-19T05:36:00.001-07:00

hiies :)
omgg today was the last day of year 7 ):
im gonna miss 7B so much!
the best study group ever!! all the inside joke.
BUTLER. OREO. those were the best ones :D
hehehe but theres so many more jokes, so many more memories.
at first i didnt really like my study group.
especially with adrian screwing everything up and being perverted.
but then after this whole year i love my study group.
i'll miss 7B so much ): i'll miss you all so muchhh ):
i'll miss all of you.
i dont wanna move to year 8.
i dont want time to fly.
most of all i dont wanna grow old.
yeah i have this thing with growing old :P
i know right? its so dumb. i mean like everyone will grow old.
but i dont wanna be old. i dont wanna have like wrinkly skin and grey/white hair.
HAHAHA EWW. omggg.
year 7 past too fast.
it feels like i've only been there for a week.
i still remember the first day i came.
and missing all my friends in singapore.
but i guess when you leave your friends then you know how much they mean to you,
how much you love them, how much you'll ever miss them.
i wish i was a little baby. that way i'll never worry about problems.
you'll never care about what others think about you.
you'll never really understand what hurts.
i was just reading through the my old long convo with michelle, kat, graces and aubs.
yeah that was a long time ago.
all the bitch fights... all the bullshitting.
it just seemed like it was a few weeks ago..
it doesnt feel like a full year. its just too fast, time flies too fast.
and next thing you know, you have white hair, you have wrinkly skin.
cant time just stop in one point? cant it just freeze there?
cant it just let me go back to where i belong? cant time just let me be in 5.4 again?
but then again if time stops right there and let me enjoy my time,
i'll never know what 5.4 means to me. I'll never realize how much Graces, Chean Shuo, Brenda, Aubrey, Nathalie, Charlotte and maybe even Nicole Goh(OHMYGOD I DID NOT JUST SAY THAT) means to me, i'll never know how important they are and i'll never treasure them.
I never really treasured the times i was in 5.4 and now i regret it. I miss you all so very much.
i even miss nicole goh... and maybe even erica and melanie?
yeah amazing i know, all the bitch fights between us and yet i could miss you.
im sorry you guys, you guys took the first step in apologizing but i just stood there and didnt want to do anything... i made almost everyone go against you guys. Im so sorry.
you guys remember me always ok? Eri msn me ok? and and and have fun in taiwan cant believe you moved :( mel... erm well we cleared everything now.. and just wanted to say thanks for everything in the past.. all the hanging out and sneaking out of my house to go to your house just to see crumblez. thanks for everything and all the jokes and prank calls and all those stuff.
for once i'll miss you too.
GRACES.... theres so much to say to you but theres so little time. I know its different, its difficult to be like before, be best friends like before.. but i can try and i want to try to fill all those gaps. I want to prove to you no matter where you are and where i am, i'll still be there for you. Im sorry i suck at keeping in touch so we dont talk as much anymore,we cant call because it will be so damn expensive, we cant text each other like before because you and i will be wasting a whole lot of money but i promise i'll talk to you on msn and i'll always webcam with you. I'll help you with anything as long as you ask i'll do it. You have no idea how much i miss you. I just hope we could be like before, best friends for life wait no its best friends forever. whyy? cause remember you said before you wanted it to be forever so then even when we die we'll still be best friends ):
imy sooo much
ilyxxx
i just hope there could be a miracle and it was still january 2008. 2009 was just a dream and i would eventually wake up from that dream... but i know thats not going to happen.
By missing someone so much i guess you learn to be stronger?
You'll learn how pain it feels...
year 7 im gonna miss you so muchh...
7B FOREVER <3.
x
HAVE A GREAT SUMMER EVERYONE (: I'LL BE MISSING YOU

2009-06-18T02:12:00.000-07:00

HEY GUYS(:
omg its like half a day more and its summer!! YAY!
summer is gonna be awesomee :)
but reports :( i didnt do that well, loads of people got better than me :(
and and study group!
7B RAWKS :)
we're like the most awesomest study group ever :D
hahahaha *rings bell* BUTTLA.
(7B people will get me)
LOL guys!!! dont worry! i dont have a butler!! i dont want one either! LOL
hahaha when i just got to know my study group, i didnt really like it...
mostly cause we have adrian -.- and adrian is so perverted -.-
but after this year, i realized my study group is awesome:)
we're so cool :D hahahaha so AT LEAST my study group next year is pretty cool too :D
i havve erm 2 close friends :D so yeah shouldnt be that bad XD
ahhh yay! today was the last lesson of drama, math, geo, PE.
heheheh YAY NO MORE MATH.
no more math teacher picking on us :P *hint hint*
OHHH AND OUR CHINESE CLASS.
chinese class is pretty ok (:
most of the people are okay(: the boys are really really super crazy esp charlie and bernard -.-
but theres so little girls :( i wish there will be much more girls next year :D
like hopefullly there will be new peoples :) hehehe
xloveyouxx

2009-06-15T03:41:00.001-07:00

TELLY:
TELLY! ILY TELLY XD
haha we're so cool. telly & jelly.
HAHAHA trust me telly you can get someone better than him :)
you can get anyone in the world you want :) you have to trust me for that!! :)
BE CONFIDENT GIRL :) hehehe ILY TELLY <3.>
i had so much fun with you in drama :D
jelly loves telly :D
you know who you are :D

SUMMER:
SUMMER IS COMMING!! :D
cant waitt xD its gonna be so awesomee ;D
but but but i wanna go to singaa in august :D
i want to :( coz it'll be national day there :D
haha i used so much ":D"s in this post.
im so bored lately, yesterday was the boredest day of my life!
besides from midnight ish coz i watched a movie with my family
but after lunch it was so damn boring -.-
like i had nothing to do at all. blah bleh blah.

FOR YOU:
i hope you'll know who you are after reading.
heyy, erm really sorry about today.
I didnt know i was hurting you at all.
i swear i didnt mean to. you mean much more to me than you think you do.
since easter ended, the only person i had was you.
you helped me through when i most needed someone to cry on.
and even when your friends were kinda mad at you for hanging with me you didnt care.
you helped me through everything. could we be like then?
can you let me fix everything up for both of us?
remember the butt convo thingy? remember your motto?
remember all these good memories?
please? just give me one chance please?
i know you are really pissed right now but i really didnt mean to hurt you.
i hope we could be like before...
you have no idea how much you mean to me..
please dont say everything im saying now is bullshit
cause im writing from the bottom of my heart...
im sorry, please forgive me?
loveyouux
Joelle apologizes :(

YOU:
dont frikking wtf me. cause i have as much rights as you to write about you on my blog as you did. wait you did even more i didnt even mention your name. like seriously just cause your pissed? i didnt even do anything to you. i didnt even bother you and all you do is come bashing into my life saying i ruined ur day saying im a sexual intercoursing bitch who'll never change? and your excuse is cause it was the easiest way to let go of your anger? i have no frikking idea why i trusted you so much before, i cant believe i actually wanted to prove to you everything. omg thinking back now i think i just wasted like 9 months of my life. i cant believe you turned out to be such a person. dont try to be all the innocent girl cause i know you enough to say your not. i dont deny that it isnt my fault before either, but this time you went over the line. you crossed the line. you keep on saying that i ruin your life and all but you know you can fix that all up and be a happy person? no its not by being my friend again but just by not bothering me. If you dont bothering me anymore you'll feel so much better if you do that.

TAG REPLIES:
May: LUFFYOUTOO:D
jianing: HEYY! :) erm im okay:D how are you?
TELLY: no silly im not cheating on you :D ILY TELLY

2009-06-12T18:56:00.000-07:00

dear person,
thanks for actually trying to not get pissed at me in ur post.
yeah i may try a little too hard. but you have no idea how lonely i get.
i dont like to be alone, who would?
i try not to get mad at them, but of course i will eventually.
they didnt do anything to me for now... so i have no reason to be mad at them.
sorry if i annoy you alot, but i really dont know how i do that.
I try not to annoy you you know? i just dont know why i care about you so much.
its just so frikking annoying, i cant even let go of everything...
Everytime i read the letters we gave each other, i just wished it was november 2008.
i want to live my life like this, but your best friend just keeps on comming back.
she keeps on ruining everything. I mean like if you want to pissed at me you can but you dont have to write my name do you? cause seriously i just think thats really immature. and the notebook she read? thats really private. and plus even when she was my "friend" then i didnt say she could read it. It has all my secrets and stuff inside and what i want to do and stuff like that. i really dont like her to be taking my stuff and trashing through it.
Sorry if that offended you because after all she is your best friend. Im just saying how i feel.
btw, we didnt have 7 months of true friendship, just 4 and a half months.

2009-06-11T05:44:00.000-07:00

TODAY IS THE 11.6.09

guess whos birthday? the girl i lovee... JASSY :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASSYYY :)

i have so muchh fun with you in chinese xD

esp when star ate our big cola gummie :(

poop in the summer we must get more gummies!! XD

and and and we must save some for next year! and EAT THEM RIGHT INFRONT OF STAR! :)

let her be jealous :) OMGG LAST FRIDAY :)

i had so much fun with youu! :) it was soo awesome.

you tricked the taxi driver XD i got extra $10 from the stickypics perrson :D

hHehhee :) jassyyy happy birthdayy :)

have a great one :) you deserve it :)

thanks for always being there :)

you have been a really really really good friend,

you have no idea how miserable i would be without you:)

you gorgeous little thing :D thanks for forgiving me too :)

even when you knew i lied, even when you knew i was fake, you still listened, you still cared.

i'll miss you during the summer :(
ilysm jassy :)

more than words :)

ILYYYYYYY MUAH <3.

2009-06-09T04:52:00.000-07:00

HEY GUYSS! :)

omg its 1 and a half week more till the summer <3.

summer is awesomeee :)

hmm so yeah year 7 is ending..

i remember the first day of school,

everything was different, everyone was different

i was afraid i couldnt make new friends.

and i know i made a huge mistake in that friendship and it is unforgivable..

especially when we were supposed to be best friends, i wasnt ever supposed to do that.

but its the past already, maybe i would change, maybe i wouldnt.

just so you know, it does matter to me, even though i said i want to let go and i want to move on,

maybe i really havent, but right now, i know you'll never forgive me so i'll just live life as it is. It might seem like i dont care anymore, but really i still do. I just dont like to be sad anymore.

1 week and a half, is it really over?

i never thought it was so fast.

i guess through the whole year 7 i have changed alot,

i grew stronger. Year 7 was really tough for me at first..

from being in a small weird but awesome school to a whole different enviroment.

It was a huge change, and even though moving was sucha annoying thing to do,

i did it. Im settled down.

Year 7 was really different, there were so much more that happened,

and most of all there was so much drama. Some which i caused too... sorry.

I still remember the 1st impression of cis..

its really different from my old school.

And even though i dont mind cis anymore, i still truely miss everyone in mgs :(

mgs was my home for 5 years and it will always be.

Year 7 is gonna come to an end,

i'll miss year 7. Who knows? it might turn out to be the best year

xoxo

Joelle <3.

i just wanted to say I.MISS.YOU.AUDREY.AND.ADELE :) iloveyoubothcouzzie :P miss the sleepovers, bbq parties and all the stickypics :) you two are one of thee best couzzies ever :) ilyyy<33.>

2009-05-31T08:01:00.001-07:00

heyy!
i remember MGS was a christian school..
so we had like chapel and alot alot of quotes and stuffies from the bible!
remember the benediction? i almost forgot it until i asked wu lao shi! (YOU GUYS IN 4.4 WILL KNOW WHO IM TALKING ABT XD OHH AND GRACES XD) thanks :D
haha its like this... (ILOVETHATSONGnotreallybutyesxD)

Now unto him that is able to keep you from falling, and to present you faultless before the presence of his glory with exceeding joy, To the only wise God our Saviour, be glory and majesty, dominion and power, both now and ever. Amen

lols i never really believed in god until p5 :) THANKS GOD :) for helping me through p5 :)))
OHH theres this quote behind our diaries. its not really a quote but it does make sense ALOT OF SENSE. "Trust in the lord with all your heart; and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3: 5&6" hahaha lols. OHH Remember the huge fight graces?? then we prayed SOO HARD. LIKE EVERYDAY? hahaha lols.
OMGG I STILL HAVE THE CHARACTER GUIDE BOOK! its the eagle thingyy book xD
hahaha and the MG bible!! xD its so small though.. the words are tiny LOL!
i remmember the 5 I WILL thingy xD

hahhaa and all those songs and CHAPEL!! XD chapel rawks xD :O I REMEMBER THAT THAT OLIVIA ALWAYS SLEEPS IN CHAPEL!! HAHAHA XD dont you think god is so important?
sometimes when you have absoulutely NO ONE, you can always count on god (:
coz hes my best friend forever, he'll never leave me. He'll always be watching me.
Even though i have created sins (LIKE ALOT) he still believes in me, he still loves me. AND OF COURSE I LOVE GOD (: hes the reason why im here :DD
iloveyou god!

2009-05-29T05:10:00.000-07:00

once in a while i get this dream,

i always do actually, but then i wake up to see its just a dream.

the worst part of it was dreams dont come true.

i remember the 3 of us used to be sooo close. We never fight, even if we did it was over some retarded little thing and we would ALWAYS get over it before 24 hours (:

we acted so retarded before and go hyper so easily :))

rmb the NDP?? :)) omg i had so much fun there xD and the phone number written in the bus we took back to school xD hAHHAA it said: call ________ for free sex! AHHAHAHA LOL and we took ahem's phone and dialed it xP HEHEHE that was REALLY fun xD

remember my last day? the performance when we all just broke into tears :(

i wished i could stay with you two forever :) live will be so awesome, we would always be jumping around being retards xD

hahaha though we DO talk on msn webcam and stuff but then its kinda not the same.
You two barely go online anymore :(( i guess you guys have ur PSLE comming up! WORK HARD :)) dont slack like me ahahaha i'll be watching you both xP

i'll always miss you guys :)

my best friend and best shopping buddy every x)

ahhaha loveyouboth xx

OLSEN.BLACKMORE.BLACKMORE :)))

2009-05-22T07:56:00.000-07:00

hey guys!
its been a long time since i posted!
hahahaa :) i just wrote a song.. for you.
Thats how i feel right now
Its dedicated to you.
Goodbye girl I'll miss you
I'll always remember you. Hope you will too

Goodbye
(Verse 1)
Lil Gurl good bye
I’ll be gone for a while
Or maybe forever
Thanks for being there
Thanks for everything
Good bye, don’t cry

(Chorus 1)
You may hate me
But I’ll always love you
Cause it was always worth it
Goodbye I’ll miss you

(Verse 2)
Theres so many memories left aside
Theres so tears falling apart
But I know it’s for the best
Lil girl I’ll miss you
Goodbye

(Chorus 2)
You may hate me
But I’ll always love you
Cause it was always worth it
Goodbye I’ll miss you
Lil girl good bye

(Bridge)
I was lucky to meet you
I was lucky to see you
But now it’s time
It’s time for me to say goodbye

(Chorus 3)
You may hate me
But I’ll always love you
I’ll never forget you
Cause you were always and forever
Worth it
Lil girl goodbye
Lil girl I’ll miss you
Goodbye don’t cry

Goodbye...
**CREDITS GO TO NICOLE IP FOR HELPING ME ;)

2009-04-24T06:35:00.000-07:00

I know this girl, she always manages to bring back my smile when im sad. She might not have the perfect family background or may not be the perfect girl i know but i know one thing i love her and i care about her. I just met up with her last friday. I was troubled, and so she talked to me about her experiences in life. I always thought i've been through alot and i always felt like giving up in life, in friendship, in family. But after talking to her, i've realized i havent been through alot, she probably been through 5 times more than me. She made me much happier, she made me realize alot, she made me become happier and stayed happier. Maybe i still get troubled, maybe i still get bothered, but i know shes there for me so everything will turn out fine, as long as she is there i know everything will be ok. Though i dont know her for a really long time, i know shes a great person. Remember when we got into so much trouble last year? haha i miss those days, i was so worried but then i knew you were there helping me, giving me a hand so i stopped worrying and guess what? everything went all right (: thanks to you. That girl used to cry at least once a week last year but now shes so much happier and im happy to see her that way. Im happy you've finally became happier :) Seeing you happy makes me happy (:

Well guess whos that girl? Nathalie Gan (: i miss you, i love you. Be happy and stay happy (: keep on believing in your dream girl (: I know you can do it, next time i see you you'll a bowling champion (: I miss you so much. I've been writing and writing in your book wanting you to reply. Just so you know i'll be there for you forever. Ops! i forgot theres not such thing as forever but theres something called "until the end of time" (: I'll be there for you until the end of time. I will love you till the end of time (:

iloveyou nat.

Hugs and Kisses from HK

2009-04-20T01:04:00.000-07:00

hiies!
omg easter is over :(
well i went to singapore in the easter :) had so much fun xD
i love singapore even though its so frikking hot.
it was a blast though i still had alot on my mind but yea had so much fun!
i miss singapore, im singapore sick now :( i miss everybody there too :(
did so much fun stuff xP hehe i wanted to go to downtown east though :( but i never did =.=
lol anyways this was what happened :)

Saturday - took the flight to singapore and then when i reached went to the hotel. Thenn i went to cineleisure to meet up with aubrey and brenda :) we took stickypicsss xD thennn we watched confessions of a shopaholic (yeah i know again LOL) hehehe i had so much frikking fun with you guys :D ily horsey and bird x)

Sunday - well i slept in then i went to meet up some of my friends. We just walked around and shopped a little then we took some stickypics. :)

Monday - OMG MONDAY WAS SO AWESOME! XD hehehe so i woke up earlier so i could visit my friends in my old school. So yeahh had to wake up like at 9. Anyways so i went to school and visit my friends. Meet most of them. BUT NAT WAS MEAN. she ignored me :( lol. thhenn i gave my old teacher a big big suprise xD hehee. So after visiting i had lunch with joyce andd my mom's friend. Lunch was pretty yummy. Pizza and pasta? lol. After that I WENT TO CHEAN SHUO'S HOUSE! OMG her house is hugeee!!! XD hahaha :) i had so much fun with her xD we pranked called people HEHE xD andd and went on the com x) we were laughing like the whole time hahahaha! her sisters are so cute too! their eyes are huge though. ily Chean Shuo :) thanks for the fun day x)

Tuesday - i wwent to school too! haha well just visited other friends :P thennn in the afternoon i met up with graces :DD we went to mcdonalds together for lunch :) i got mcflurry and fries x) she got some burger and fries :) we camwhored a little in mcdonalds and then we went to cineleisure to take stickypics xDD hehe we took alot of stickypics x) but sad thing is GRACES WORE A GREEN SHIRT. so her shirt totally camoflaged!! HAHA so it was like she was invisible ish LOL XD. ohh then my mom wanted to bring my family to night safari. (: it was pretty funn but it was really hot and smelly xS lol i had fun with you graces! iloveyouxx. bff :) forever and always

Wednesday - x) i slept basically until 10ish or maybe a little earlier. Watched TV until 2? then i went out to shop a little. Then met up with Adele and her friends. HAHHAA that was so frikking funny. Adele wanted to watch Jonas Brothers 3D movie thingy but thenn they didnt have the movie showing in cineleisure xD hahahah so we went to KFC instead. LOL it was really really funny and sick xD hahahhahaa then halfway joyce and audrey joined :) we took stickypics!! XD
hahaa then it was like 6 alr :( so we went home :( yeahh

Thursday - well didnt do anything with my friends but i went shopping for my friends :) anyways i went shopping with joyce all the way until 2ish i think. thenn joyce's friend came and we went to bugis :) bugis was so awesome. i shopped quite alot. well i think its alot lol. shopped shopped shopped and then we went to watch knowing. It was pretty good. I got kinda scared though LOL.

Friday - OMFG ITS ALR FRIDAY :( i was sooo sadd :( well sorta. okkay so i went back to MGS to visit everyone for the last time before i leave :( sobs sobs. gave my presents to everyone :) hope you guys all like it. but but what i got for chean shuo... she alr has it -.- well not really its just a different color but !!! LOL thenn i went back showered and then had lunch with my ggranda and relative -.- when it was like 2 thenn went to school and meet up with nathalie :) well we wanted to go to her house but she wanted to see ppl bowl in OCC so we went there since it was like really near her house. nat is mean LOL she made me _____!!! :( lol. it was frikking awkward. LOL annd then we walked to her house shes so lazy she wanted to take a taxi -.- Then we went and fold stars hahahaa. lol we were really bored. anndd then we went and have a walk in her house. hmm.. did i mention that nat was trying to call a special someone? well he didnt answer ahahaha lol. We had dinner outside with her sister andd her mom. Lol. omg we also had cotton candy xD hehehe i went hyper in the car xD hahhaa. When i was hyper she was being mean again!! :( TEXTING A SOMEONE :(. pfftt lol. then we folded stars again! hahaha i wanted to dress her up!! lol but she didnt let me!! buuttt i made her wear short shorts!! hahahaha xD we ate jelly x) and camwhoreddd xD lol. then i had to go coz it was like 10 :( sobs. i had so much fun with you nat! ily nat! haha bffls :) btw i love ur gift. & i write in it almost everyday x) & keep on chasing ur dream dear! u can do it :) focus determination concentration x) hahaha you'll become a bowling champion one day! i know you will ily!

Saturday - its alr saturday :( easter past tooo fast!!! hmm i'll skipp the boring parts so in the afternoon i went back to my fave pizza shop! omg lunch was so good!! ahahah then i went back to orchard. didnt shop much just went around looking at stuff. andd then it was time to go back :( i packed my stuff and then took the flight. the flight was awesome!! i gotta take the new flight! it was really big! well the business and first class and and the suites were HUGE!! the economy was okay :) and then i reached hk :(

Joella x Moosefolding stars xP

Nathalie x Joelle x Jewel

2009-04-04T21:12:00.000-07:00

Its been a long long time since i face to face talked to you.
I miss you so much. I barely talk to you now.

Nothing is the same anymore, we've gone our seperate ways.

We are still best friends but we aren't that close anymore.

I was just going through our letters and the pictures we took together.

All those memories, i miss those times.

We both had our times when we were down,

but we always knew that we would always be beside each other.

When i was all lost in the big black world, you were there for me.

Everytime i see the letters you wrote for me, i cry..

i cant believe we arent together anymore.

Its just like peanut butter and jelly getting seperated.

Even though i only knew you for a short time, our friendship was so strong.

We had our little fights but in the end everything would go back to normal,

me and you would always be best friends again. Remember our friendship bracelet?

I still kept it, you had the forever side and I had the friends side.

Friends forever.. thanks for always being there for me.

I wont ever forget you (: ily xx

2009-04-02T06:31:00.000-07:00

can i ask one last question.
do you care about me anymore?
just that question. i just need a one word answer. Yes / No.
you said you hate me, you ignored me, you got pissed at me, you bitch about me, but you never said you dont care about me anymore. You could do everything in the world to me but as long as you havent said you dont care about me anymore i wont give up. Never will give up until you say you dont care about me anymore. If you dont say those three words im sure theres gonna be a way we could work things out. But if you do say those 3 words i'll go away, i'll never bother you again, i wont ever appear in front of you ever again. Sorry for disturbing you, i just need your answer. xxx

2009-03-24T05:15:00.000-07:00

2009 doesnt seem to be fine or nice.
its miserable here.
i just wanna run away, far far far away from youu
glad you liked it when i wasnt there, i guess we were never really friends.
maybe one day i could just dissapear from your world, that way you would be so much happier.
but i dont understand something if you didnt ever ever wanted to be my friend anymore why didnt you tell me earlier?
save so much more pain and heart aches.
Sad thing is i'll see you in school everyday since we're in the same study group.
Its gonna be hard but each everyday gets a little bit better.
just a question... why did you have to choose this week? esp when i needed someone the most,
why this week? I just wanted someone to lean against but if you thought i was using you if it really seems like that then im sorry.
When you said you could forgive me i was really happy,
but those are empty words too. You just had to tell me you hate me then, why now?
because im crushed and hurt. it hurts even more when i knew you hated me. i thought you were there for me, but its all empty words. all the "iloveyou"s are fake.
everything seems wrong.
but what can i say? its all fate.
_______________________________________________________
ugh today is very not fine.
im sick but at least today me and joyce talked i guess
hmm kayton is gone now.
so much to do but i cant think right -.-
just hate life. wish i could have home school
ting xie tmr -.- fuck fuck fuck.
i hate chinese, i hate school.
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck
byebye.

2009-03-22T08:46:00.000-07:00

7 years of friendship.. is it really just gonna come to an end like this?

maybe for 5 years of friendship i didnt talk to you much but our friendship was once so strong.

Now its over, is this just another little fights that every best friends have? or is this our end?

Sorry for all the past, theres nothing I can do now but I know the only thing I can do is to change, be a better person. But before I can ever prove it to you, you have to give me a last chance, just one last one. Please believe just one last time I've learnt my lesson. I'll never make the same mistake again. Sorry to hurt you in every way anyone could think of, but at least we were once best friends and we had so much fun together. Do you still remember one of the days you said I was the best best friend you ever had? and I've changed ur life? When I heard that at first I was really happy. I was happyy because I'd made you happy. But someone who can change ur life in a good way can always do the opposite and I did the opposite. Im really sorry. Maybe all my sorrys might seem like lies to you but deep down in my heart its a sincere sorry. I swear when you give me another chance I'll treasure it. I promise i wont ever let the past repeat.

All the great times we had were endless....

1) screaming out loud in ocean park

2) writting each other letters when we were so depressed

3) year 7 camp together

4) the very first song i wrote was for you

5)Rock on Bitch stickypic

6)High School Musical 3 together

7)Eating frozen yoghurt together

8)My 12th birthday sleepover with you

9)The "scary" dance class with you

10)Starting year 7 only knowing you

11)Witch and Pumpkin

12)"Behind all those laughter and smiles is the sad truth of bitchy monkey and pinky dude bullying zookepa and funky monkey" do you remember that quote?

13)Zookepa and funky monkey

14)Monkey emoticon on msn

15)Trying to cheer allissa up together

16)On the phone with allissa at night whispering

17)Joe to moe to the toe toe toe

18)Webcamming with you every night

19)Playing Truth Or Dare

20)Berry & Joey.

21)Camwhoring under my bed.

Many more memories... One day they'll just all fade away...

I've realized that you were so important to me, without you im breaking apart. Hope you'll give me one last chance... iloveyou always and im truely sorry.

2009-03-22T08:30:00.001-07:00

heys.

4 days without you, its really hard.

especially on family dinners where we used to text each other complaining about our family dinners... maybe i've lived 11 years of my life without knowing you perfectly fine but now i cant, ever since we became friends i've always remembered you...

i cant believe i've hurt you so much in the past i wish i could turn time around but i really cant all i can do is change. You might not think im trying but this time I am. I really wanna prove it to you that i've changed but you have to believe in me too, you have to give me one last chance to prove it. Everyone tells me best friends have fights and eventually they become friends again but idk why im losing faith, i dont ever think we could be okay again.

Im really sorry but i really cant do anything about the past. What was done was done, theres nothing else i can do or change. All i can do now is know i'll never do the same thing again.

I must have hurt you when you found out the truth but I really didnt know why i did it.. I was just stupid to do that.. I just need one last chance, at least just talk to me on msn or skype again.. no matter how much you hate me i still do love you xxx.

2009-03-21T02:26:00.001-07:00

everything is different now..
now i really regret moving....
im reallly singapore-sick (if its even possible)
and im really truely sorry too.
i just want to prove to you i've changed but i cant without one last chance...
im really sorry, its just too little too late.
"Well I'm sorry I'm not who you thought I was, but what's happened is in the past, and all I can do is try to change." (quote from gossip girl) thats all i wanna say now....
xxx

2009-03-19T05:39:00.000-07:00

you probably hate me so much now..
its fine i deserve it.. but im sure this time im trying really hard...
thanks for the memories and every second i used to be with you guys..
i realized how much you mean to me. but again whatever i say now you wont listen so...
i really dont know how to fix this anymore... why do i cry all day when i know you arent even gonna find out what happened and care about me? because i love you guys... i really do.
its just that its all my fault. i deserved all these punishments... i really dont know how to fix this. i really cant handle anything in life... i miss you guys... i love you..
i really wanna proof that i can change back into the real me.. but i guess shes gone..
i never ever wanna give up on you girls but i guess you already gave up on me...
thanks for helping get through year 7 in the beginning... helping me in ever little step i took...
i guess you've gave up on me long ago? no matter how many times you tell me that you hate me.. i wont give up...
im sorry... really am sorry... but you'll probably think its bs or just another lie again.. sorry for hurting u guys in different ways but i really am sorry now.. i think i've learnt my lesson already.
now i just wanna cry out loud and hope you'll forgive me but all the stuff i've done before its just across the line to forgive and forget... all the tears that drop now are real i swear. you might not believe whatever i say but i promise whenever i said i love you it was true..
i was so stuoid so so so stupid to do everything i did to hurt you guys.
you wont give me a last chance its fine... if i were you i wouldnt either but i just wanted to say 2 things thanks and sorry.
thanks for all the memories i had... halloween together, pictures, long convo, webbying, friendship cards, valentines day hearts, always asking me to eat... i'll miss those stuff but yeah goodbye for now.. even though you hate me.. my heart is with you guys forever and always. no matter how many times you say "i hate you" i'll still love you. coz loving you is the only reason that makes my life worth it... you guys deserve to shine.. and i should just be left alone in the dark... thanks anyways for everything... i will change, i'll proof to you i will and i can..
sorry for the past
x ily forever and always
no matter how much you hate me i'll still love you. i'll love you more tomorrow today and love you twice today than yesterday... i love you much more than you think i do...<>

2009-03-15T02:03:00.000-07:00

hiies!
had fun yesterday in the party
thanks gurls for making it so fun for me :)
hehehe im chatting to nathalie's friend now.
yeah her future boyfriend. dude i cant believe im talking to him when i dont even know him -.-
okay im retarded lol. but they are so cute :D
nathalie will be so happy if she sees this. but sorry nat um hes kinda... ugly? sorry but he is.. HEHE sorry :P nat read this!
joellee <3>
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE / I S A A C (: = that person

joellee <3 says (4:50 PM):
btw is nat in love?
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:50 PM):
why'd u move to hk anyway?
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:50 PM):
oh
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:50 PM):
she was
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:51 PM):
;D
joellee <3 says (4:51 PM):
hahaha she ms to be in love though
joellee <3 says (4:51 PM):
i moved coz of parents
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:51 PM):
oh
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:51 PM):
haha
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:52 PM):
she was in love with me last month
joellee <3 says (4:52 PM):
HUH?
joellee <3 says (4:52 PM):
SERIOUSLY?
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:52 PM):
but i didnt wanna like her now cus she's gonna have her psle
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:52 PM):
mmhmm
joellee <3 says (4:52 PM):
erm
joellee <3 says (4:52 PM):
joellee <3 says (4:52 PM):
so do you like her?
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:52 PM):
i did
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:53 PM):
but told her i couldnt be with her
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:53 PM):
(:
joellee <3 says (4:53 PM):
im going to give it all my best.wad i use to say. FIGHT TILL THE VERY END <<< HERR PM IS TO U?
joellee <3 says (4:53 PM):
why not?
joellee <3 says (4:53 PM):
aww
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:53 PM):
lol
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:53 PM):
her psle!!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:53 PM):
its quite major man
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:54 PM):
i screwed mine up
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:54 PM):
dont want her's to be screwed up too
joellee <3 says (4:54 PM):
what school are you in now??
joellee <3 says (4:54 PM):
aww you care about her
joellee <3 says (4:54 PM):
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:54 PM):
im in acs independent
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:54 PM):
(:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:54 PM):
im 14 btw
joellee <3 says (4:55 PM):
you live nnear her yea?
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:55 PM):
hmmm
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:55 PM):
i used to
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:55 PM):
but not anymore
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:55 PM):
i used to live in yishun
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:55 PM):
but now im in bishan
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:56 PM):
sigh
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:56 PM):
sometimes i miss her man
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE says (4:56 PM):
joellee <3 says (4:57 PM):
awww
joellee <3 says (4:57 PM):
den just
joellee <3 says (4:57 PM):
go out with her
joellee <3 says (4:57 PM):
x)
I S A A C (: says (4:57 PM):
cant
I S A A C (: says (4:57 PM):
she has to concentrate i guess,
I S A A C (: says (4:57 PM):
maybe next yr
I S A A C (: says (4:57 PM):
(:
joellee <3 says (4:57 PM):
lol
joellee <3 says (4:57 PM):
you m to care abt her so much
joellee <3 says (4:58 PM):
so sweet
I S A A C (: says (4:58 PM):
haha
I S A A C (: says (4:58 PM):
i do
I S A A C (: says (4:58 PM):
(:

OMG and i just realized they have matching pms :D
hmm? nat why didnt you tell me before? :P
xxxx

2009-03-12T09:07:00.000-07:00

hey guys!
been quite a while since i blogged.
sigh lifelifelife. life isnt fair. its always changing
and so much have happened in just 1 week (bad things)
and sadly the week before my birthday.
allissa says do what you wanna do, do what you feel like doing it will help you feel much better.
yeah its kinda true. but i cant just go up to you and say fuck you bitch get outta my life can I?
coz i really wanna do that. I know if i do that you'll probably turn every single soul in our year against me and start your fucking princess temper and bs about me -.-
so what if your pretty on the outside ur just as ugly as a witch in the inside, bet you dont even have a heart. btw do you know what a heart is anywayys?
just go away ok? i dont ever wanna see ur fucking face anymore. JUST FUCK OFF.
yeah fuck off fuck off fuck off FUCK OFF!!
argh why did i make friends with you in the first place? if i knew you were sucha bitch,
i should have ignored you from the start, i really dont like you.
you becomming more and more bitchy you know that? every single second you live, you turn bitchier. argh why am i wasting time on you now?!
byebye pretty on the outside ugly in the inside bitch.
(:

2009-03-11T07:06:00.000-07:00

hiies!
these few days are better in a way?
but also drama -.- ugh. well at least these few days i went hyper alot :P
ehehhehee poof! i went hhyper in math and DT xD
hahaha i never get hyper at home though!
today yesterday and monday was boring though.
tomorrow is joyce's birthday...
annd last sat i had yum yum dinner at this expensive japanese restaurant.
then sunday had dinner at home and then had a mango ice cream cake :D
it was really good! better than the ones i had before :P never eaten so much cake in my life.
and thenn this sat having a party.
hope there aint gonna be any drama in that party!
xS i really hope not or my bday is gonna be a disaster :S
ahhh i talked to graces earlier.
she swears now! omg yeah she swears. like says bitch and fuck.
never seen her swear before though, hahaha gillian made her swear tsk tsk
spoil her innocence.
going to go watch a movie now
byebye. loveyouall

2009-03-04T04:28:00.000-08:00

heyhey!

i'll try to post more these few days?

LIFE IS FULL OF SO MUCH DRAMA.

i hate drama.. so much drama in school..

so much here and there -.-

i dont even fucking know why im tearing..

im not crying just tearing...

i miss you so much..

theres this quote saying..

friends miles apart are close at heart

is it true? can friendship overcome distance?

i miss you so much,

i was just looking through my photos when i saw you..

the photos brings back so much memories

i really wish once again i was with you, everyday

we would go shopping together again

eat all we could until we become sooo full we cant move.

camwhore all day long...

all these memories

i still rmb you... do you?

can friendship really overcome distance? or is it just another fancy quote?

the last day of school all i could do was cry.. i cry myself to sleep all night.

we used to talk on the phone for 3 hours..

i really do care about you

hope your having a great life.

i wont ever forget you my dearr. forever and always will love you.

xxx joelle

2009-03-01T01:07:00.000-08:00

dear dear person,
im done with you.
you know whatt your two sided.
yea you would probably be thinking its about ur guy friends again
but sorry ITS NOT. its about you, bacckstabber.
if i didnt know you i would be much of a better person.
GO AWAY. GET OUT. FUCK OFF.
your a low life bitch too you know that?
bsing about me? so what if im closer to ____?!
so what if im her good friend?! does that mean i want popularity?
if you think that way then fine but im not.
and before you bitch about me can you think about urself first?
how much of a backstabber, low life bitch, two sided bitch you are?!
STOP BSING ABOUT ME OK?!
shuddap. so what if i dont treat you as nice as others, do you deserve it anyways?!
I DONT THINK YOU DO.
and dont act all innocent in front of me saying you didnt say anything about it.
BECAUSE I KNOW WHAT YOU DONE. no i didnt hear it from people.
I READ IT WITH MY OWN EYES. stop bsing about me. I HATE YOU TWO SIDED LOW LIFE BITCH. GET U AND UR FUCKED UP MESSED UP PROBLEMS AWAY FROM ME. I HATE YOU!

2009-02-24T23:42:00.000-08:00

hey

this is gonna be another pissed/sad post

so here it goes!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

CAN YOU STOP BSING?

CAN YOU STOP SAYING YOU CARE? because i know you didnt.

can you stop taking more and more people away from me and making them go against us?

i officially hate you.

idc if ur gonna be fine with all my friends you'll never be fine with me

i cant believe i've spent 6 months thinking you were my friend

but after all you were just a total bitch.

all the bs and lies you said, i know it alr.

dont deny it bcuz i know the truth alr

please stop saying u trusted me the most outta all of us

because thats just bs again a lie from u again.

you say you need me but you dont

ur happy w/o me so im done

we're done. its all over

2009-02-23T07:13:00.000-08:00

hey!

im so tired

but i wanna finish up my drawing before going to sleep

its only 11:14?! and im sleepy alr sucha failure.

sigh so many ppl are sad now

esp cheri, shes sad again (or shes not in the mood to talk)

xS its so hard to make her happy again...

cheri if ur reading this PLEASE BE HAPPY!

i wanna see the hyper cheri again :D

the happy one! the one that laughs at everythingg!!

DONT BE LIKE THIS >>> :(

BE LIKE THIS >>>> :D

:) hope your feeling better

please dont be sad anymore

makes me a lousy best friend to see you sad

and i cant do anything about it.

pleasse my dear smile :)

ily gurl. xxxx

2009-02-20T05:12:00.000-08:00

heyy!

today was fun (:

jazzy cheri joelle we rule!

woot! hahah im so lame

xD frozenn yoghurtt anddd granolaa

yum yum. pound cakeee :D

riceee and soyaa saucee

thats all we ate together :P

hehe cool yeah? yea i know joelle jazzy and cheri are so awesome

haha and then we had dance class.

JAZZY IS SO GOOD AT DANCE!!

shes so damn good! haha ily talented girl (:

we had street jazz today was okay la but i could do the turning part :(

im addicted to circus and phonography by britney spears xP

SHOOT! omg my phone bill went BOMB! again :(

ahhh and im not supposed to text other ppl for 1 month at least 2 weeks la!

but i just texted someone!! NONO!! OMG WHY AM I SO ADDICTED TO TEXTING?

ahhh my phone bill is gonna go boom again.!

do you honestly think we were meant to be?

i dont think so. why? because i always can draw hearts

and hearts represents love. but everytime i draw a heart for you i draw a ugly one.

and to think that you added all those drama in my life?

hell no. no fucking way im gonna forgive and forget.

its too hard, everything is stopping me to let you in again.

byebye xx

2009-02-19T00:21:00.000-08:00

1. Cheri
2. Sherise
3. Kazia
4. Angela
5. Jasmine
6. Alwin
7. Graces
8. Chean Shuo
9. Nicki
10. Jade
11. Nicole Ip
12. Nathalie Gan
13. Brenda
14. Darien
15. Therena
16. Aubrey
17. Jeremy
18. Tiara
19. Sophy
20. Claudia
21. Tricia
how did you meet 7? 5.4 08! best class ever (:
what would you do if you had never met 15? Idk
what would you do if 20 and 1 dated? hahaha if they are lez?
have you ever seen 17 cry? haha nope
would 3 and 6 make a gd couple? hahaha sorry no. 6 has a gf alr and they match perfectly (:
would 4 and 16 make a gd couple? 1st they dont know each other 2nd they arent lez (i think)
describe 19: nicee (:
do you like 17? guitar freak.
do you think 8 is attractive? YES AND CUTE (:
whats 5s fav color? umm JAZZY WHATS UR FAVE COLOR?
wen was the last time you talked to 9? umm today in school (:
hu is 13 going out with? idk brenda if you are going out you better tell me whoo :P
what grade is 16 in? samme as me
what is 14s fav music? idk
would you ever date 17? HAHAHA NOPE!
wud you ever date 3? shes cute but im not lez
where does 18 live? i have no idea
wt is the best thing about 4? THERES ALOT. but her hawtness is the best (:
wt would you lyke to tell 10 rite now? jade is pretty (:
wt is the best thing about 20? idk? pretty?
hav you ever kissed 1? hahaha on the cheeks?
wts the best memory you hav of 16? hahaha dying in class together and getting trouble together in class xD
wens the next time youre going to see 4? SCHOOL TMR (;
Is 5 pretty? shes not pretty shes GORGEOUS, HAWT, CUTE and all the good things you can think abt
wt was your first impression of 15? cutie pie
how did you meet 3? haha school
Is 6 your best frd? hes my brother?
hav you seen 18 in the last month? yeap i saw her in school today
wen was the last time you saw 16? OMG DUDE LONG TIME! HALF A YEAR ALR!!
hav you been to 21’s house? nope
wens the next time youll see 10? TOMORROW!
are you rly close to 6? erm i guess so?
hav you been to the movies with 4? nope WE SHOULD ANGIE!
hav you gotten in trouble with 8? HAHAHAA YEAH :D
wt did 12 rite on your wall? yeap!
wud you give 19 a hug? sure
wen hav you lied to 16? ugh idk?
do you noe a secret about 8? yeap but its a secret shhhH!
describe the relationship between 12 and 18 erm they donno each other
wts the best thing about your friendship with 9? hahaha erm we're good friends?
wts the worst thing about 6? HAHAHA EVERYTHING :D
hav you ever danced with 14? nope and never happening (:
How long have you known 13? um 2 years
have you ever been in a fight with 2? nope
does 11 have a bf/gf? MAYBE woot woot ;)
hav you ever wanted to punch 2 in the face? ahahahha yesshh xD
has 1 met your mother? yeap
How did you meet 21? school (:
Did you ever accidentally physically hurt 13? not yett
Do you live close to 7? sadly really far away :(
What is 8’s favorite food? ICE CREAM :D see i know you well (:
If you could change one thing about 6, what would it be? self-obsesed ness!
hav you traveled anywhere with 9? nope
if you gave 2 $100, what wud they spend it on? shopping (:
wt is your best memory of 20? im not close to her.
out of the top 21, which is funniest? idk ily them all (:
hu is the most flirtatious? jade, nicki nathalie (sorry its a complimant!) haha natt :P
which one lives farthest away? Graces, Chean Shuo, Nathalie, Aubrey, Brenda :((
which one do you hang out with most? 1,2,5 (now) 7,8,12,16,13 (used to)

yeap! another quiz! :D
im so happy dude! idk why!
xDD HEHEHEHE TMR IS FRIDAY WOOHOO! yay! then i can relax for the week!
ahahhaa you guys must think im mad xS
hehehe 7 and a little more weeks till EASTER.
woot woot! easter baby singapore HERE I COME!
xxxx

2009-02-18T03:07:00.000-08:00

I LOVE YOU NICOLE!!

YOU'RE SUCHA CUTIE PIE! :P

ILY AND FOREVER WILL!

and yeshh my dear im feeling much better!

xxx

PS sorry for the short post, just wanted to tell nicole ily (:

2009-02-17T00:42:00.000-08:00

hiies..

today was a disaster.

almost the worst day ever.

i wish i was in the past.

when cheri used to be alwin, alwin would be jeremy and jeremy would be me on skype.

those days were really fun and of course bitchy monkey (darien) zookepa (cheri) and funky money (me). I miss those days! and i remember the huge long convo

its so sad no one talks in it anymore we kept the convo going for like 3 months?

that was the best convo ever. but now its all gone.
if i could just unwind a clock and go back to the past.

that was probably the best time in my life.

ohh! even in camp! though camp was suckish but i love those days!

i miss those days! it was so fun thenn

and of course my fave quote was made then "im an angel from hell and a devil from heaven"

i love those days and miss them soo much! that was the time that i barely cried, esp not because of you. i hate you now.

you broke half of my heart yesterday, you broke my full heart today.

I HOPE YOUR HAPPY NOW. low life bitch.

you say you do care abt me if you do then why bother stabbing me from behind and killing me?

you know you ruin everything for me? im supposed to be wen xi-ing ting xie but in my mind all im thinking is YOU YOU YOU AND MORE OF YOU!

wtf. and please can you ask ur two fucking jerks to stop bothering me?!

do you know how much more you hurt me?

i even fucking cried in school

i dont cry in school easily.

even you yourself saw but did you care? NO

instead you took as if nothing happened like i didnt cry.

it really doesnt matter anymore.

you dont have to go to OP with me, write valentines day letters with me, laugh when your world is falling apart with me and write letters to me when ur depressed. you have ur 2 fucking jerks.

i dont really care anymore, knowing you hurt me this much, my heart is broken

totally broken. totally. do you know how much pain i was in?

even food couldnt cure me.

xxx

2009-02-16T00:19:00.000-08:00

i guess your happy now?

since im all weak and crying.

your probably laughing ur head off.

i thought you were a great friend, im wrong.

you think im only doing this bcuz of her but ur wrong, shes a great friend.

just think about how you hurt me. you always said you get hurt but do you also know that im hurt too?
why am i so stupid? why am i crying over you? everyone knows you'll just leave me for him one day. but why am i still cryinng? crying OVER YOU? out of all problems why you?

i wanna stop crying but why cant i stop crying? everyone knows im gullable but why do you use me? i guess between you and me there isnt anything called true friendship. and no im not a robot, i dont follow her, i have my own life my own brain. after how you treated me in art im not sure i can ever see you and not cry anymore. both of them are jerks. cant you just let me live a happy and peaceful life? i cant even do anything now, everytime i try to do something i end up crying. i dont know how to face tomorrow. i dont even know if i have a tomorrow anymore.

will my tmr have you?

xxx

2009-02-14T22:13:00.000-08:00

hey guys!

today is the 15th of february!

yay! guess what day is today?

*DRUMROLLS*

NATHALIE GAN'S BIRTHDAY!

oh yeah! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATHALIE!

gosh can you believe it? YOUR 12!! yyay!

i miss you nat! so muchhh!

thanks so much for all the memories

i love you like my big sista. your sweet like honeyy :D

heehe stay happy forever! smille =)

thanks for being there for me, helping me and being crazy with me :)

you can shine my dear (: BELIEVE IN YOURSELF (:

you can do it! chase ur dream! dont give up!

hehe ily, imy.okayy over with the happy part.

down with the other sad part.

sometimes i feel that idk who you are anymore.

you've changed, i can accept that but i cant accept the fact that you hurt everyone now.

you hurt all ur closest friends.

i dont know you anymore.

you care about them more than ever now. its like they are the one that shapes your life.

and when im down and tell you why, you tell me its my fault.

you know how much it hurt? everytime im in a fight with my sister,

this is always what you say - your sister is nicer than you.

you know that everytime you say that my heart shatters into pieces?

you changed. your so much more flirty now. i really dont wanna be in a fight with you.

we all make mistakes but we have to learn from our mistakes. i hope you will.

think harder think about what you do to everyone.

im scared of you now, idk who you are anymore.

2009-02-13T23:50:00.000-08:00

hey.
why are you doing this to me?
why are you avoiding me?
i thought we were bffs.
but i guess its just in my dreams?
the difference abt dreams and real life is that,
in real life theres no such thing as happy endings.
now we barely talk. now we barely do anything together.
looking back i see how close we used to be.
but not its all gone. is it something i've done?
its okay if we dont be bffs just plain friends are fine to me too. but i just need to noe why.
just one question. why.

2009-02-13T20:02:00.000-08:00

heyhey guys!
happy valentines day! (:
yesterday was dance night again.
mmhm and this time i went.
wasnt as much drama as i though and stuff but im glad that drama started when the dance was gonna end.

so... i guess today is gonna be about love love love?

since it valentines day my post will be in valentines day colors :P

haha so some msgs for my dearest friends (:

Cheri: heyhey! happy valentines day! stay happy my dear! find ur prince! iloveyou! xxx

Sherise: heya! HAPPY VALENTINES DAY! and yes im very gullable i think i know that alr. ily! xxx.

Allissa: hey! had fun dancing with 4 boys? hahah happy valentines day! loveyou xxx

Graces: heya happy valentines day! have fun in singapore! ily imy! xxx

Chean shuo : happy valentines day my dear! find ur prince charming soon!! loveyou miss you.xx

okayy all done. btw sorrry if i didnt add in the msg!

sorry! coz im kinda lazy :P

so to everyone out there HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

woot woot :P allissa danced with practically 4 boys or maybe more dance as in SLOW DANCE (:

hehhee adrian kissed allissa on the cheek :P

xxxx ilyg! byebye!

2009-02-09T03:00:00.000-08:00

heyhey guys!
gonna do a few quiz :D
hehehe bored.
It's harder than it looks!Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real places, names, and things -- nothing made-up. And, you can't use your name for the 'Boy/Girl Name' question.Tag 10 people with this, but don't use the same answers as the person who tagged you.
1. What is your name: Joelle Au
2. A 4 Letter Word: joke
3. A Boys Name: jonathon
4. A Girls Name: Jojo
5. An Occupation: Jeweler
6. A Color: jasmine
7. Something you wear: JUICY COUTURE! :D
8. A Beverage: jolly shandy
9. A Food: jelly (:
10. Something found in the bathroom: jacuzzi
11. A place: JAPAN :D
12. A Reason for being late: jet lagged :P
13. Something you shout? JEEZ!
14. Something you would never name your pet: jay
15. A book title: Japanese manga :P
16. A song you always get stuck in your head: JONAS BROTHERS :D
17: A television show: (idk)
18. The first thing you see when you wake up: Joelle's phoneee :D
19. Something you love: JOELLE AU (:
20. Something you hate: JOYCE AU :@
21. A sport: javelin
22. A famous person: JOE JONAS! (forever and always hawt)
23. A very odd thing: joyce cant fail her test.
24. Something you never have time for: jigsaw puzzles?
25. A family member JOYCE AU.

What year were you born?-1997
What is your name if you spell it without the letters "e" "y" and "t"?-joll
Who is your 9th contact in your phone?-auntie juliet
Have you had your birthday yet this year?- nopee
How old will you be in 5 years?-16
How about in 20 years?-31
Where was the last place you went?- school?
Do you have a twin?-nopeee
What was the last movie you watched?-umm idk the name
Are you afraid of shots?-nopee
What color are the walls of the room you are in?-white :(
Have you ever dyed your hair an unnatural color?- nopee but i want blue highlights :D
Does anyone call you baby?- erm YESH. ALOT OF PEOPLE. lemme name a few, allissa, alwin, sherise etc etc etc
Regular Cheetos or hot?-regular
How's your heart lately?-bad good, depends to who.
Favorite fruit?- MANGO ;D
Are you scared of spiders?- THE BIG ONES YES!!
Do you have a piercing?- yeap!
If someone doesn't like you, its usually because...?-im evil
Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?-nah makes me look emo.
How long does it take for you to take a shower?- 20min? maybe a little longer
Whose birthday is coming up?-MINEE!! and sherise, and joyce, and claudia loads of ppl.
Do you like roller coasters?- YEAH! esp with my bffs :D
Do you have a tattoo? nopeee
What is wrong with you right now?- ALOT OF THINGS. im supposed to be studying :@
What was the last movie you went to?- i think theres a question like that.
Do you care what others think about you?- depends who.
Do think you'll be married in 10 years? umm i dont see the future?
Are you afraid of the dark?-nahh
Do you like your life at the moment?- sometimes yes most of the time :S
Where were you last night?-on earth
What kind of shirt are you wearing?-school
Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you?- yeahh
What are you afraid of the most?-um stuff in the world
When's the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?- HAHAHA i forgot :P
Do you have a crush on someone?- nope. im innocent.
When is your birthday?- 15TH MARCH :D
What are you doing tonight?- everythinggg
Describe life in one word?- okay for now? gonna be really messed up later
What happened at 10:00 am today?- CT class?

2009-02-05T06:57:00.000-08:00

hey guys!

sorry for not posting in awhile!

sorry! yeah little busy these few days.

hw hw hw. -.-

omg omg omg im so friggin bad at chinese!!
:@ i got the lowest score for ting xie!

the teacher is only being nice because im new!

arhh!! im so gonna drop back down xS

bet you my teacher now is dissapointed with me =.="

i must study hard!!

finished al my hw so far..

tomorrow is friday :) YAY i think.

argh life is so friggin screwed up!

so many problems!

home and school both!

home doesnt even feel like home anymore.

i hate it when u turn into a bitch and he turns into a bastard,

but guess what? I FRIGGIN HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT! why? COZ UR MY PARENTS.

i didnt do anything to deserve this crappy shit frm you two.

feel like running away from home and never ever comming back! :@

school, home. home, school.

both. PROBLEMS problems PROBLEMS non stop.

family is wrong.

school is hard.

but i guess in school i get to see my friends?

i hate it when i see you around everywhere.

why issit so hard? we're friends arent we??

but whenever i see you i think that ur just acting innnocent.

your really selfish you know that?

you really just use people because you want something else.

its nothing wrong with what i did, but in the end u just get so jealous,

selfish and greedy. i mean seriously? there isnt anything nice to fight about.

you are by far the person that i get mad the easiest.

i thought u were just playing with me, but in the end you werent,

you were hinting me, telling me a message and i found out what it is.

i hate to fight with you because i know i can never ever beat you or even compare myself to you.

but whenever i see you selfish and greedy i really really dont like it.

you in a way have a really cruel heart, and i dont like it.

please stop ok? your just gonna hurt everyone.

xxxx

2009-01-29T19:22:00.000-08:00

heya!

omg holidays are ending..

its friday alr!!

ah!!! :(

okay yesterday was pretty normal.

woke up ate yummy breakfast :P

cookies and juice.

used the comp, finished some hw.

then send joyce to causeway bay for tuition and i went to sogo and window shop.

yesh i didnt buy anything.. then walked around. picked up joyce at abt 3 pm?

then had lunch :) it was yum yum. corn soup and pizza :P

then went home. computer, watched a little bit tv.

then webby with nathalie!! :D

she looks so pretty!! :)

but i didnt v chat with her my mic doesnt work on msn.

mmhm and chatted with chean shuo a little too.

i miss chean shuo, my shopping angel :P

and ate toberone chocolate xP

i love it! i went hyper with nicole for awhile :P

HEHEHE :D thenn i ate snacks :P no dinner for me cause i was too full

OH and i collected more red packets frm my mom and dad's friends :P

hehehe but some stupid gwai lou only gave me stupid chocolate coins that i dont eat.

dude my dad gave his child like $50? and he gives me some dumbass chocolate coin.

pfftt. okay im boredd. nicole and me chatting.

today... i woke up then had breakfast.

same as yesterday.. cookies :)

i love cookies.

i love food.

im sucha fatass.

xD
xxx loveyou

2009-01-28T19:16:00.001-08:00

HELLO!

long time since i blogged :P

chinese new year holidays are ending :(

awww i havent even finished my hw yet xS

im screwed :P

hehe anyways i cant wait for easter!!

WOOHOO! easter is gonna be so fun :D

IM GOING BACK TO SINGAPORE IN EASTER!

yay!! :D finally! i miss singapore like HELL.

:DDDDDDDD

oh and HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

kinda late but yeah xD

i love nicki's post so effing much!

:D thank you nicki, iloveyou!

:) TIGERS AND SHARKS FOREVER :)

okay byebye!

2009-01-23T02:32:00.001-08:00

HELLO!

today was AWESOME :D

hehehe today was half day school.

so after school ended at 11am i went to cheri's house.

her house is HUGE.

haha then we watched a movie and had our lunch (pizza :D)

god that was yum yum. then we went to causeway bay to meet up with jazzy and sher.

and JAZZY BROKE HER SHOE! HAHAHAH

so we got her a new pair of shoes but UNFORTUNATELY it was too small for her and she bought it alr :X so i wore her shoes and she wore mine :) but her shoes were really pretty :D

and then we shopped, bought a shirt and then they had lollipops and then BUBBLE MILK TEA!

hahaha i love bubble milk tea <33>

hehehe then when i got home GUESS WHAT?

I GOT A LETTER FRM AUBREY AND BRENDA IN SINGAPORE!!

wooohoo!! yeaH! i LOVE THE LETTER!

thank you thank you thank you SO MUCH GURLS!

HEHEHE im gonna reply them, yay! 1 week break :)

ehehhe yuppies! okay im gonna start on the letter,

byebye! iloveyoU!

2009-01-15T05:01:00.000-08:00

hiies!

today was funny xD

but monday was better for some reasons

i cant wait for next monday.

all the mondays ahead! HERE I COME!! :P

12th jan changed my life a little, it was awesome.

and..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICKI AND AUBREY!!

:D LOVE YOU GURLS SO EFFING MUCH!

nicki : happy birthday! have a great 12th! nalwin forever :P

aubrey: heyhey! happy birthday! thanks for being an awesome friend! have a great 12th! loveyou!! xxx.

tomorrow is friday again..

i dont want the weekends to come,

people must be thinking wtf is this girl thinking?!

weekends are awesome.

but in my world weekends suckk.

okay im not really happy now.

i miss someone sooooo much xS xS

i noe i noe im random xS

but seriously i miss that special someone alot xS

long time since i've seem that person or talked to that person.

we used to be so close, but we got into a HUGE fight on march 25.

thats why i dont really like my birthday anymore.

we were once so strong, but now shattered apart.

we stopped talking aft that, started being mean to each other.

but you hurt me, yesh i noe i was the one who gave up on you

but you hurt me, too much, the pain was too deep.

the wound could never be healed.

but after all these, i still miss you, i still love you.

we used to talk everyday, whenever we met.

but after the fight, you walked passed me like i was invisible.

but i knew in my heart i was waiting for you to apologize.

unfortunately you didnt.

we used to hang out every friday but now we barely even see each other.

we used to talk on the phone every night but now i think you've even deleted me from ur phone.

i might be the one who gave up on you, but i was really dissapointed with you then.

i cant believe you turned out to be sucha bad person.

i never thought you would be that type of person.

when you saw me cry after we werent close anymore, you'd probably were laughing ur head off.

yeah and guess what? im being a retard im being a retard to miss you.

i cant believe i miss you. i still think of us before, i still have the photos, i still save our messages.

i hope you're happy without having to care abt someone so bitchy like me.

thanks for the memories.

xxxx.

2009-01-13T01:05:00.000-08:00

lalalalala

hehehe yesterday was funn XD

after school cheri janice ric and i went to eat :D

the food was yummy but ric was being fussy LOL

then i went to tai koo shing with janice and cheri ><

cheri bought a present for kazia and then we went around shop shop shop.

and janice went into a ___ shop and started playing with the ___ .

HEHEHE SOOO DAMN FUNNAY :P

ahahaha thinking of it makes me wanna laugh my ass out xD

then walk walk walk again :D

and then ROXY :)

roxy having a huge sale! my clothes b4 are now 50% off! blek

and thenn cheri bought a orange stripes shirt which makes her look sexay (trust me see looked so hawt, too hawt burning hawt)

then it was time to leave for dance class.. happy and sad :P

dance class was fun but really hard :@ me and cheri were the only kids!!!

the people we danced with were so good!! they danced so well and fast!!

hahhaha the dance moves were funny :P hehehe

i was hungry after dance went home, and eat eat eat :P

trust me i ate ALOT. hehe and according to my bro he says im fat lol

but the food was good :D well any food is yum yum to meez! xP

and then hw hw hw :( bleh

today was okay.

talking to graces now :)

SHES EATING MY FAVE COOKIES AND CREAM ICE CREAM!!

arghh!! I WANNA HAVE SOME!! i crave ice cream :P

hahahaha okay im bored noww

xxx. jojo au :)

2009-01-10T18:51:00.000-08:00

i dont know whats wrong with me.

i dont know whats happening

i just keep on crying..

today is bad.

i keep on crying

i dont even noe why

im just afraid, just scared

and you just make me feel worst, make me want to die.

i noe ur trying to help me but all you do is screw everything up.

i really just hate life.

just cant stop crying..

thinking what will happen next i cry more im scared.

im afraid. i noe i was very happy before but today im all down.

i even cried in my sleep dont even feel like doing anything but cry.

im trying to stop the tears from comming down

but it doesnt seem to work

you've really hurt me alot and i cant forgive and forget anymore.

you've done too much, im too hurt.

yeah maybe ur helping me but i dont see the help i feel worst now.

you made my day worst. i hate you for being in my life.

i really hate you, i want to be happy but the tears just come back every minute.

im supposed to be happy for monday but now i just feel like ending my life at this moment at this second. someone please kill me? i really need to die.

normally when i think of food and twilight my mood gets so much better

but because of you i dont even wanna eat or edit pics anymore.

i hate that you're so close to me and u've hurt me so much.

you may think its funny to see me sad see me cry

but its not, im dying inside and all i see is you laughing at me.

i hate you.

joelle

2009-01-09T17:10:00.000-08:00

i ate ice cream :D

yup in the morning :D

yesh i noe im gonna grow fat xS

wait i am alr fat xS

hehehe but yeah i love cookies and cream ice cream!!

:DDDD i live for it nah not really.

so school hmm nothing much to talk abt.

so monday is comming soon!

woohoo!

and today is kazia's bday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAZIA!

yeah happy birthday!!

loveyou now ur 12!! :O xD

hahaha

okay back to blogging.

umm yesterday was fun xP

allissa and me webbying xDD

HAHHAHAA and nicki allissa cheri on skype call with me!

hehehe that was sick but really funny xPP

hehehe yay! okay idk what im talking about nowww...

still i wanna get into showcasee! woah cant believe showcase 2009 is comming soon!

argh nidda get into 2010 desperately!!

arhh and im nidda type sum messages!

cheri : heyhey! i read ur blog. please no more sad post ok?

i wanna see cheri smile, because her smile makes me happy and dont fake it because i wanna see the real smile the real smile that makes me love you. at least we're gonna spend more time on monday? all my monday till summer will belong to you alr :) i loveyou you noe that. bff. xxx

sherise : YAY ur finally happy!! yeah thats the sher i want and i love :)

ahahaha last night recording videos was funn! hehhe seeya soon babe :) xxx. loveyou. bff

callysta: hey! umm well i kinda read ur blog. yeah though i dont know you much but...

CHEER UP :) smile more :)) and life cant always be bad ok? so maybe it sucks now but im sure sooner or later it will be much better (: wish i could see you for real :) xxx.

and complaining time for me : CHINESE.

god damn how the beep can i stay in 11?! its so hardd :@ argh!

bei mo here bei mo there blek! i have to memorize 2 poems and 3 sentences!

wtf we never used to memorize so muchh! arhh and my bro claims that I HAVE TO LEARN.

tsktsk hes supposed to be setting a gd example but he isnt :) hes playing in class

muahahah im sucha "good" sister :D

and now thanks to allissa i love the song womanizer by britney spears!

:O yeah the music video is sick but the song is good. and she looks good in the pink hair :)

argh okay i better go do my effing crappy hw! yes i noe i swear alot :P

cant blame me! im used to it alr. OH AND.. I EFFING HATE MY DRIVER!! :@

yes he made me fall down the steps in my house!! :@ damn him. cant even drive

everytime he drives me everyday theres at least one time that he almost had an accident.

aiya life isnt fair =.=" okay bacck to hw before my brother shouts at me =.="

i love my friends :) xxx. lalalala byebye!!

2009-01-07T01:48:00.000-08:00

SHOWCASEE!!!

omg SHOWCASE SHOWCASE SHOWCASE!!

i wanna get into showcase!!

bleh i wish i could be better xS

nicki got into showcase!! HOW AWESOME IS THAT?!

yesh it awesome!! so awesome!!

im jealous hahaha

i'll work hard!!!

just finished chinese homework -sigh-

i miss the old class! it was a BIG MISTAKE to put me to A1.1!!

i skipped one textbook ONE WHOLE TEXTBOOK!!

back to homwork now! work haard to showcase 2010!

xxx. JOELLE

2009-01-05T05:29:00.000-08:00

hey guys

im gonna appologize in public :O

yes in public on my blog :)

dear dear nicki,

im sorry for being a bitch and saying bad stuff abt you.

i am sorry and i mean it from my heart :)

im happy we're friends again :)

and this time im not letting ANYTHING get between us.

(: im protecting our friendship.

friends forever :)

xxx. jojo

yesh. hope nicki sees it (:

my week is getting better i guess.

though i moved up to A1.1 for chinese.

cant you believe it?! the stupid-est person LIKE ME? to the best class ever?

i guess the teacher made a mistake! im gonna work hard :)

its tough. everyones so smart D:

they read one page in 2 seconds! im like WAITT!! IM NOT DONE! IM NOT DONE YET!!

and they write so damn fastt!! ITS LIKE EDWARD CULLEN RUNNING :)

hehehe yesh im obsesed :S but im proud of it xD

back to homeworking :S

countdown 3months 10 days (:

xxx. JOELLE. working hard to my goal :)

getting into showcase before 2011 :)